2009 last reccomendation

I am slow. I know it. I am stuck at the farm for who know how long. I miss the debut of lots of beautiful songs. Including the song I was waiting for. It was the "君がいるから", also known as "kimi ga iru kara", by Sugawara Sayuri.



The other is by Leona Lewis, "My Hand". Can't believe that it will be used as the Final Fantasy XIII theme song.

Well, enjoy the song title "My Hand".



Well, Basshunter has a new album. Enjoy one of his song from the album, title " Every Morning".



Well, beside introducing Japanese song and also English song, I will also not forget that Jay Chou also had a new song for his latest movie. I think it is up in the cinema in Malaysia around this time. Sad that I am stuck here in Australia.

Enjoy the songs. Kinda lost touch with mandarin songs. Sad. Should update myself soon enough.

Destiny

'Destiny is a funny thing'. Once you think about this quote deeply and then you will realize it. Realize that it is true.

Seem like I am watching an AWESOME series. I am learning a lot from it.

Back to my objective. Today is the last day of 2009. What have I done during this whole year? Done with my second year. Others? Nothing else. I am such a loser. 2010 is coming. What should I be doing next year?

I am wondering. Any ideas?

Hmm.. The top is just some random stuff. There are some points in life where you will start to contemplate. Really thinking bout you yourself. Well, I think bout me myself at most of the time. Today while watching Alvin and the chipmunks, I actually was thinking, have I been selfish in my whole life up till now. It was at the moment when Britney scolded Alvin for being selfish as he always think bout he himself all the time. Have I?

Almost two years since I am here. Why am I not going back? Why I am not even looking forward to spending Chinese New Year? Many people did throw that question to me. Well, I have my reason for not really wanting to go back to Malaysia at the time being. It is not that I don;t want to go back but not at this moment. There are things that I think I have to finish up at here. As for Chinese New Year, ever since my grandparents move out to the city, Chinese New Year is getting weirder for me as each year passed. It was till the tragic incident that happen right before I come over, Chinese New Year is no longer Chinese New Year for me. The atmosphere is no longer there. Guess that life changes every time something happens.

I admit that I am a greedy person. I wanted to grab hold of everything. I wanted to have everything under control. There are times I hope that everything will stay the same forever. Maybe not the same, but once something good happens, I will have to feeling of wanting it to stay and then wanting it to expand from there. Well, things will just come and go. Someday, I hope that I will be able to gather everyone around again for Chinese New Year.

In life, everyone has different point of view. Giving an example, let's say we all go for a trip. During that trip, there are some occasions where we aren't allow to take pictures in that particular location which most of us will consider "special". However, there will be a guy or a camera hidden somewhere and take picture of us being at that "special" location. Well, and then it will be sold to us before we leave. I know that many people will think that I am a big spender because I will purchased that pictures most of the time. Why? Simple, money just can't buy memories. I don't mind working hard to spend on those small things as we go along. In life, these small things might actually matter the most.

2010. I will take up courses on cocktail makings and coffee makings. I had always like enjoying cocktails in bars. I don;t really like clubs. Prefer bars, as I can enjoy my drinks, listen to the music and chat with friends. Last few days, I met this really awesome guy who make coffee in some really nice coffee shop. He demonstrated on how he draw those pictures on the foam on top of the coffees. Amazing.

Last day of the year. I am enjoying some new songs. Thinking bout things. Running trough some stuff in my head. Enjoying every last minute of it. Thinking a little bout my future. Planning out some stuff that I should accomplish. Missing lots of people. Wondering how things have been around them.

Hmm.. I only have a brain. My parents would definitely hope that I would do well in my studies and take care of my health in the coming year. My friends would hope that I find a girlfriend fast. At here, I wish everyone "A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR". Hope everyone will stay healthy, live happily and enjoy life".

Life is short. Enjoy it to the max. ^^

Morning World

Morning. Few more days and this year will officially end. A new year, year 2010 will be here. What will be ahead of me? What will be there lying in front waiting for me in year 2010? Anticipating? Might be.

While writing this blog, I learnt something. "When it is after 2am, just go to sleep. Whatever decision you make after 2am is will never be a good one.". Got it from the series, "How I met your mother.". So, nothing good happen after 2am. Face it.

Finally, a good sleep all trough the night. I am fresh and awake. Early morning, laughter began to fill the air. I think today's gonna be a good day. It is very funny as Kaka struggle around the kitchen saying "I am very hungry.". What should I do today? Lunch later, shopping and then head of to the airport to pick up my cousins. So gonna relate this to my sister later after I pick up my cousin. She gonna be so jealous. What can she do? She is in L.A. Los Angeles, she is having a better time than I do. Nah, I won't say that. She is just having fun in a place which I haven't been to yet. But I am having tons of fun here.

"Nobody, Nobody, want me.. chak chak, chak chak," Haha. Funny lyrics. Yea, thanks friend. Yesterday, right before I sleep, a friend message me asking me when will I be back. Obviously my answer is "I don't know." And after that come in the girlfriend thingy interrogation such as, "You got girlfriend now?", "Anyone you like?" and "Going after anyone?". I would go... Let's end this fast. :p

Well, I don't know but one thing that my friend said actually send me flying in my thoughts again. Let's say I am concentrating on my career right now and I don't want to be distracted by anything especially in relationship. What happen if I am successful and still single. Will I be feeling lonely at that time? Good advice. I don't know. Let the fate decide for me? If I am destine to be lonely then I shall find some excitement out of it. Haha. Hope so. To me life is a game. Whatever we do, our job, study, and etc are all a game. We should enjoy the whole process and gain something out of it. But to me a relationship is not a game. Weird.

Wow, my body start to itch again. Off to the bathroom and ja people. Have fun and enjoy life.

Merry Christmas

Christmas is so yesterday. ^^ Well, it was really yesterday. Today, no longer is Christmas.

First of all, waking up early in the morning, login into the facebook and this is what I saw.



It is a nice song but can be kinda emotional. Lonely, lonely Christmas. Maybe? Haha. The sudden rush of loneliness stream trough across my senses. This month has been a month full of meetings and break ups. Someday. I believe in someday.

Anyway, enjoy the song.

Whole new experience

Life has been easy for me? Working in the farm has been a whole new experience. Well, farm work is new for me.Fruit picking, fruit planting, fruit packing and others. In school, we did study bout how the food is being process. We might not have been going in details about it in school but I think most of us would have the faint idea about it. Now I finally manage to experience it by myself. Freaky exciting and fun.

Besides learning more bout farming, it is also fun to interact with those farmer. I remember I got the chance to cruise around the farm with a powerful ATV. The farmer let me jump on one of his ATV. COOL! The farmer really treat us nicely. Making coffee and provide us with cakes and biscuit during our breaks. Telling us stories bout their childhood and sometimes share with us bout the life as a farmer. It is not easy. Being a farmer means a everyday battle with the weather. The weather can really damage their crops.

Staying in the outskirt with bunch of backpackers? That is the best part bout this whole trip. Knowing different people from different country, staying together and have fun everyday. Fun. This is what i call fun. Beer everyday. Not only due to the hot weather. It is also during the party and also the celebration. It is nice to know that many people in this world is outgoing. Even though sometimes they have to defy what their parents want from them. I must thank them. Now I know what I might want. Another one of my very own bag packing trip. My very own. So that I will be able to discover more about myself.

My next target would be japan. As my bag packing trip. I shall improve myself by learning from the world. Learn how things work. Learn their behavior. By doing so, I hope thatI will be able to grow and protect the people around me. Then I ...

2nd year

2nd year engineering ending soon. Meaning it is around two years that I have been here. Time flies. Today, while shopping just now, I suddenly felt exciting thinking that it is my 2nd year is ending soon.

2 years. I will graduate in another two years time. I am slow if compare to my friends. Sometimes I hate myself then I think of that. If only I didn't hesitate to come over here last two years. In only I did not hesitate to take up the engineering course. I might have ended my 3rd year engineering by now.

Practically wasted a year. I should be looking at the past anymore. I shall look forward and work for it. Go for the things I want without any hesitation.

Currently, I am listening to Olivia Ong. Strange. After some rest, I will have to do another past year paper. I still have to study the theory tomorrow for my paper which is on Wednesday.

Last week, I chatted with my best friend. It is so nice to know that she had found her little world. Haha. I don't really know what does her little world consist of. Currently, it seems that she is satisfy with what she is having. This is good. Well, she told me that she is wondering why everyone seem so enthusiastic to travel around the world. In my mind, I am thinking. Is it because we still haven't found our small little world like her? A small world where we will feel comfortable inside it. Well, everyone have different desire. Everyone is seeking for a place where they belong to. It is good that some had already found it, some might have just missed it, and other might still be looking for it. Currently, I am one of those who are still searching for it. Searching for a nice spot in this big big world.

Anyway, sometimes I feel that human will be good without any feelings. Without feelings mean there is no weakness. Then they will be able to achieve greater things in their lives.

2012

Typically I watched 2012. Like always, I will want to be the few to watch those good movies first. I am not going to be a spoiler here. Catch it people. It is AWESOME. Non stop action till the end.

Yesterday was relaxing for me. It shouldn't be that way especially when I am in the middle on the exam period. Haha. Well, it doesn't matter. I have eyed on the Olympus tough 8000. Getting it soon. It does not have the image quality that I need but it is waterproof and tough. Really need those specs for next years. It is fun to see two friend struggling when they are in front of the DSLR cameras. One already had one which he bought for 1.7k AUD recently but now, he is eye-ing at the canon EOS 7D. The perfect DSLR for noob. The other one is trying to hold himself till after exam before he get his hand on the Canon EOS 450D. Not a bad choice for noob as well.

As for me, I think I should get a handy cam. It will be fun. It is for the next project? haha..

The Proposal

Just finished watching the movie, "The proposal". Nice and funny movie. this movie portrait two person who try cheat the immigration with marriage. Apparently, the girl's vise had expired and she came out a proposal for his assistant, that if he is willing to marry her so that she can continue to stay in New York, then he will get the job that he wanted in the company. The stories continues as the girl follow the guy back to his hometown and their feelings began to develop.

In this stories I realized something. I realized that jealousy isn't that bad. We do get unsure of certain things or there are things or feeling that is developing within ourself, but we haven't realized it. However, jealousy often point out what do we want. in the movie, the girl basically realized that she love him whenever the guy talks to his ex. Well, she is jealous of the guy's ex.

I am not really good at writing synopsis. I shall stop here for the movie. I fear that I might ruin the storyline with my poor English.

Intended to sleep. But I can't sleep. Weird. This is no good. Usually, when I don't sleep, I will think bout lots of things. Things from the past mostly. Things that I really miss.

By the way, there is another from the movie. In the movie, the main character's dad actually wants him to inherit the family business. However, his intention has caused the son to flee to New York for his career. His mum however disagree with his dad fearing that the son might not be back to visit the family. Well, the whole point here is family business. While watching the movie, I remember the time when I was making my decision to study Civil Engineering. At that time, my mum did advise me to take up Mechanical so that I can continue my dad's business in the future. As usual, I go with my own decision. All this while, I have been thinking, my parents let me make my own decision. Helping me. Giving me choices. However, my dad's business might has been his blood and life. It wasn't easy for him to start up. Maybe in his mind, it will be great that we can actually continue the thing. However, when I make the decision, have I being selfish? I only think about what I want. I had thought only bout me wanting to prove myself that I myself can build up my own future without even understanding their feelings. Maybe I had. I am grateful that they respected me. They have always encourage me to go with my decision. Even when I am wrong, they are there to guide me. My friend is right. I am very lucky that my parents are open minded and letting me to lead my own life.

Today while chatting with my friends, I realized something. Randomly, I said "Maybe because my parents know that I am rebellious so they prefer to give me more space." Maybe it is true. Well, I am still grateful that they really believe in me.

besides that, there is something exciting this morning. I am still in my "Exam Period". This morning, we left the the house at 8.30 am for our 9.30am paper at Caulfield. The trip from Clayton to Caulfield usually only takes about 15 to 20 minutes. However this morning, the traffic was surprisingly congested. Some of our friends nearly late. Luckily none was late because the paper had being delayed. Well, as for us, we practically took the bus lane and the service lane all the way to Caulfield. A lot of local might cursed us, "Bloody Asian". Sorry, we do not have a choice. We are not going to let what we had studied for the past few days to go into the drain. It was exciting. Cutting trough the lanes, speeding along the road and discuss whether to take or not to take the lanes.

Well, this is another wordy post. When one can't sleep, he/she tends to run a lot of things in their mind.

ADIDAS red-shirt

This morning, 10th November year 2009, while I was waiting to go into the exam hall, I saw a guy wearing the ADIDAS street basketball for year 2004. It kinda bring back some memories during my days in high school. It has been 5 years and that guy still have that shirt. Well, at least another friend of mine and me still have that. Aren't sure about the other two guys.

5 years ago, 5 innocent guy went to sign up for the street basketball at MABA calling them self the G'Stringz. Their tales begin after they hand in the form for the competition...

Back to reality. Just woke up. Got another paper tomorrow. Thinking I should summarized everything again before the paper tomorrow. Looking at the sky right outside of my window, thinking how should I run around wildly under the blue sky and on the green field after my papers. Run as wild as a horse. Run till I drop down feeling exhausted and enjoy the breezy whipping across my face.

K.. Getting ready for my exam revision.

Red Cliff

The other while I was having dinner with my friends, I heard a lot of China's history. In the end I ended up watching Red Cliff again. Good Movie.

My days passed with me watching one or two movies in the morning. After that, take a bath and look at my study table. Wondering what I should eat first. Sometimes I can be so lazy that I will only eat a meal a day.
Note: I found out that 15 pieces KFC wicked wings can last me for 1 day.
Then I will start looking trough the facebook for updates and check my mails......

TIU!!! Wasting my life here..

I will start my revision today and plan for my cousin's trip later. It was really a big surprised that they are coming over during December. How random can they be? In two days time, they just bought the tickets and applied for the visas for the trip. Maybe the "randomness" runs in our blood after all.

FAILing in exam is not our fault.

I jus Have to AGREE with this so i posted it.. Hope u guys too. ^^
(Extracted from my old blog)




It's not the fault of the student if he fails, because
the year ONLY
has 365' days.

Typical academic year for a student:


1. Sundays-52, Sundays in a year, you know
Sundays are for rest.
Days left 313.

2. Summer holidays-50 where weather is very hot
and
difficult to study.

Days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep- 130 days GONE..
Days left 141.


4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health)
means 15
days.
Days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies
(chewing
properly &
swallowing)-means 30days.

Days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal)-
means
15 days

days left 81.

7. Exam days-
per year at least 35 days.
Days left 46.

8. Quarterly, Half yearly and festival (holidays)-40
days.

Balance 6 days.

9. For sickness- at least 3 days.

Remaining days=3.

10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days.

1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday. How can you
study on that day??????!!!!!!!!!!
Balance = 0

"How can a student pass ?????"

All ready?

Watermelon? Checked.. Got 2 this time.
Chicken wing? Checked.. Cooked in Japanese curry style with lots of vege and bits of apples.
Water resources? Checked.. Got fruit juice. Got sodas. Got beer.
Lecture notes? Checked.. All printed nicely.
pendrive? Checked.. Slotted into my ALIENWARE.

K.. READY to get all the programmes done and also study for the traffic.

GOOD LUCK OTHERS..

Trust You - Megumi

Trust You by Megumi Hayashibara

そよ風やししく　
私の髪をすりぬける
(there's no place like you for me)
昨日と変わらぬ　
静かな夕暮れに一人
何を見てるの

遠いまなざし
見つめている未来(さき)
ふり返らずに進んで

時々は切なくって　
時々は苦しくって
かけよって　抱きしめて　伝えたい
でも今は言わないの　
あなたが自分の夢
つかみとる　その日だけ　信じてる

(why are more and more people dreaming of the other world laugh all the way)

傷つき疲れた　
羽を休めたい時には
(there's no place like me for you)
自分の心に　
静かに聞いてみればいい
答えはそこに

うらんでみても
責め立ててみても
決して光はささない

時々は見失って　
時々は立ち止まって
くじけても　迷っても　いいから
巡り合えた奇跡で　
新しい風が吹く
重なった　運\命を　信じてる

この時　生きている

なぐさめはしないけど

時々は切なくって　
時々は苦しくって
かけよって　抱きしめて　伝えたい
でも今は言わないの　
あなたが自分の夢
つかみとる　その姿　見えるから

Suddenly got hold of this old songs. I used to love this song very much. Still like it, I think. The lyrics is good.

Translations:

The wind gently
passes through my hair
[There's no place like you for me]
unchanged from yesturday,
alone in the quiet sunset,
what ar e you looking at?

Far eye sight
looking before you
Move on without turning back

Sometimes, I'm very lonely
Sometimes, I'm very painful
I want to run up, hug, and tell you
but I won't say it now
The day you capture your dream
I will only believe the that day

[Why are more and more people dreaming of the other world laughing all the way]

When the tired and injured
wings want rest
[There's no place like me for you]
at your heart
ask softly
and the answer is there

By trying to despise
and trying to blame
the kight will never shine

Sometimes, I lose my way
Sometimes, I stop
It's okay to feel low or get lost
With the miracle that was found
a new wind will blow
I am believing the overlapping destiny

Living this time

I won't comfort you but

Sometimes, I'm very lonely
Sometimes, I'm very painful
I want to run up, hug, and tell you
but I won't say it now
The day you capture your dream
I can see you capturing it

Exam's eve

Tomorrow, the day I had been dreading for. Didn't sleep for the whole night.

Reason: To readjust my sleeping time. Gonna sleep early tonight and wake up early tomorrow morning and sit for my exam. Give me five for the brilliant strategy.

Gonna study. Yea, that is what I must do. Had my breakfast. Peanut butter and bread. Should be enough for my brain. It is easier for one to feel tired when they use their brain too much. Why? Brain uses the most energy in our body. No wonder I sleep more during exam period.

Took a bath and look at the sky. No sunshine. Look at my computer and decided to write a blog. From writing this, I will be able to get my study mood into me. Besides that, this morning I chose the songs from Basshunter. The album 'Now you are gone' shall accompany me for today.

Actually, besides locking myself back at home, I did plan to go and buy a camera that I have been eye-ing on. The guilty feeling restrained me and asked me to go for it tomorrow. Troublesome.

I should really get my ass of the bed now. Right this instance. And flip trough my notes.

BTW.. Good luck to all those who are taking the exams soon.

Emotional!? Friends.

This weird feeling. Where does it come from? It has been such a long time since I feel so emotional. My friends back in Malaysia. It has been a long time since we hang around eh.

Tomorrow is my paper. My first paper for this semester. I am ready for it. No doubt about it. Time really pass. Here, I am relaxing. My friend is viewing my notes right beside me and asking me different questions. That really help me a lot in my last moment revision. And then listening to Aya Matsuura's songs. Chatting with some friends. Maybe this shouldn't be the life of a student who is going to sit for his exam soon.

While chatting, this emotional feeling came out. I recap a lot of things. Kean Soon, Ai Peng, and Tze Yee. Wow, I really miss those time we spent together eh. Suddenly, all the thoughts about them just come flashing trough. Kean Soon, know him since form 1. He is in the class right next to me. From Chung Kwok. Know my brother first before me. My master was once his apprentice back then. Ai Peng, same class with me. Not close with her till form 3 when I got stuck in the same class with her again. Form 3, same class with Tze Yee.

That was a long time ago. They can really go crazy anytime. Messing around in the supermarket for barbecue shopping. Messed up my house for Christmas. Celebrating birthday on the KLIA rooftop. Losing my car key and Tze Yee's camera in the sea/beach way away from KL. One hell of a group eh. Kean Soon always had this evil plans coming out. Yea, a guy I would want to have wherever I want to go. He is the guy who has the click. Somehow he just know what I always have in my mind.

Well, there are a lot of friends that I want to meet. I still remember those groups I joined before, the "4 aces", the "MUFY '06", not forgetting the "G-string" and etc. So many people. However, everyone is all around the world now. Pursuing their own goals and dreams.

Exam

Exams really screw up one's life. Waking up early in the morning. When I look at the notes on the table, I will go "Another day gone into the drain. I have to stay at home to stay rather than going out into the world and enjoy god's creations.".

Currently, I am thinking what to eat. Blasting on some songs. Yea, I should get my ass out and at least buy some eggs for my instant noodles.

Move along

Work, sleep, study, assignment. Manage to squeeze in fun in between from time to time. Time just keep moving and I am also moving along with it. It seem like we are moving together side by side. Not wasting time at all.

Chatted with my mum. Update some stuff. Asking when I am going back. Yea, when should I? Soon? Maybe..

Well, like always my mum will ask me whether did I contact my friends over in Malaysia. One by one she mentioned the names of my friends and I will just reply, "got", "seldom", and "sometimes". Haha. Well, except for a name that I say. "Wah, that one long time no contact." I still remember that funny friend. Tan Ai Peng. Yea, seriously it has been a long time since we contacted each other. At least I know that she is still in Malaysia.

Well, I will definitely go back to Malaysia when I am ready. To meet all of my friends.

It is late now. Ja and good luck to all my friends.

Funny

Just finish another assignment. Design and programming. When both together. It is really a killer. I want more time to perfect them though. I had ideas. Well, maybe I shouldn't be doing things too complicated.

New laptop. Seriously have been enjoying it. Blu-ray quality? No problem.

Drink more water? Yea, I should. Health deteriorating? Not really. Just think that health is important.I mean water as in the authentic crystal clear water. Not those named Chivas, Vodka, Beer, and others.

Party? Nah, no party till this semester end. Had a feeling that assignment will be piling soon. Very soon.

Ja.. Just some random post and updates.

Confuse?

Don't know. What should I know and what should I understand bout these things? These things around me?

Life is funny. It is a joke. Everything is weird and strange.

Alright.Done.

Welcome to the world. A confused world.

A break?

Do I need a break or I　ｓｈｏｕｌｄ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｈａｎｇｉｎｇ　ｏｎ？

learning trough the hard way

Most of the time I do believe that there are times we have to learn trough the hard ways. The most effective way for us to learn.

In life we keep learning to grow. Grow into a better person for a better future for ourselves? Or grow into a better person for people around us?

Back to BECK and report writing later on. Nitez people.

Felt this way before?

As I walk out after walk, I felt refreshed as the rain drizzle upon me. My friend was running towards his car as I walked slowly enjoying the moment. The moment I hope to retain or capture. The moment when I suddenly feel so relax even though I just finished my work. Not a single inch of tiredness left with me. It just feel good. Simple.

Lately, I don't deny that a lot of things had happened to me. Losing my wallet with my student ID a day before my first paper? My lecturer lost my assignment sheet? well, the latest one was burglar broken into our place and took away my precious laptop with my 40+ gb of songs? During these time, I was calm. For example, when I dropped my wallet, I did went around looking for it. After 2 rounds of search, I just walk right into the bank and had my Debit card canceled. Later on, I just went to the library and continue my studies. Losing my assignment should be quite disastrous. However, I just emailed my lecturer 2 days later, and hand in my draft and got my marks. Well, as for my laptop, there is nothing I can do to get it back. So I will just have to get a new one. ALIENWARE? Well, yea, that is my new gadget.

Up and down. The way we deal with them shows how much we had grown. Patience I shall had for the time being. I had plans. A lot I think. Well, I shouldn't rush into my plans. I am taking each step as I planned. In the past , I had made a lot of mistakes due to my hasty decisions. It will end up screwing myself up.

Go accordingly with the flow. Do not rush. ^^

Bad Luck over?

Haha.

Congratz my friend on your engagement!!

永远到底有多远？

A nice question. A friend of mine asked me this. translations 'how far does a forever means?'. My answer is 'till our death'. Is it true? Well, she said it make sense. what do you guys think?

well, she is one of those who doesn't believe in forever. Then I guess, if someone say 'I Love you forever' to her, she won't believe in the last word. Well, I used to believe in the word before. Then only I realized that not everything is in our control.

Beatiful song by Nina

Someday by Nina

Someday, you'll gonna realize
One day, you'll see this through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared

I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well, I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long

CHORUS
'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now, I know you can tell
I'm down and I'm not doin' well
But one day, these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye

CHORUS
'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place, Ooh
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there

Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Ahh yeah yeah

Holiday

Ignore the last post. It was just some random post.

One hell of a screwed up holiday. Sleep from 6 am to 5 pm. Later on cook up some dinner and slept from 11pm till now.

This is what I called a holiday.

Should rest more. My body needs to recover.

28th July

I still remember... Long ago, this date is the first time I know you...

Which is more important?

I remember　今でも覚えている 愛が生まれた朝を...Sang by Yuna Ito

As I began this blog, this son

g started to play in my playlist. Nolstagic. I have been sle

eping for only 3 to 4 hours a day. Going trough my stud

ies. Have to work as well. Balancing between these both seem a bit hard. The good

side is, my new mate had just arrive this morning. Delivered trough first class express

service so that I can use it as soon as possible.

My I-pod Nano. A purple colour with 16 gb of memory will be with me preparing for my exams. Well, it will also be with me even after my exam. Listening to songs every single minutes is what I call life.

Now I am waiting for another new gadget to be release. The new SE phone which is the Satio. It has been a long time since I fall in love with another handphone. After the release of the Nokia 7250 in year 2003, there hasn't been any phone that can actually make me feel "I MUST GET THIS".

I will wait. It is said to be release around October. Good timing for a new phone. My current SE has been giving me a lot of trouble though. Losing my contact over and over again. Shit. Sorry Malaysian friends. Always lose the numbers you guys gave me.

Tired? I little I guess. Sleep? Nah. I want to score HD and at least D in my subjects. To get that, I must study as much as I could. Just stop work? I want to see how it is like to be trained to be a supervisor. I remember this convesation with my cousin bout how we weight those things around us. He did told me that he also want to earn more money by working at the midnight shift but to him, his health 'weights' more than the money. Me? How I weight the things I am handling now? I also would like to know.

Chatting with a friend currently. Haha. "Consume lesser coffee." Drink more water", " must take some rest." and etc. All these sentences seem noltasgic. Has been quite sometime since I heard those things. Well, personally, I know that I am very bad at taking care of my health. Wondering why. It should be the most important things and I should be aware of that. Just now only realise that I forgot to wash my clothes. Funny.

Well, I still have to wrap a subject before 12 noon. Then I have to go to university to study one of the passed year paper for maths. At 4pm, I will have to go to work till next morning 4am. Later on will catch some sleep. Then wake up again and continue to study and work. study and work till exams and hoping to finish these two weeks as soon as possible.

I have trust with my body. Seem like I am really pushing it to the limit now. How far will I be able to go with my body? Maybe I should study biology and bout human body. Device the best way to rest and work so that all human are able to push their body to the optimum and produce great things. Nah. We have been created in such a way that, our body is not 'permanent'.

Just as I finish this blog. Another song just finished.

信じよう
ふたりは　今
愛しあい　此処にいる
光が　満ちるように
抱きしめる　あなたを

Sang by Yuna Ito

Me?

Beside having the hectic life, I manage to squeeze two movies into my life today. Watching random movies that I choose from the net usually help me to discover about life a lot. Makes me understand a little more about this world. Sometimes even pull me back into the beauty of life that I am forgetting. The path that I am going trough now, there are a lot of times I wonder is this the path that I wanted? Most of the times, we have limited choice that we can only take as we go on with our life. However, most of the time we do not realise it.Well, I shall begin introducing the two movies that I had watched today. Two random movies and they are:

ただ、君を愛してる

Just, Loving You

and

Niji no Megami

Rainbow Song

These movies are good, even though they are not that well-known across the world. The movies are as shown in the poster, romance movie. However, it can be relate into others aspects of our life as well. as I had mentioned earlier, bout how limited our choices are when we are going ot make decision and setting our foot into different path of our life. In this world now, the basic needs of our daily life will be money. No one can't deny that. Most of us are unaware that everything we do nowadays actually are revolving the word 'Money'. As an example, as soon as we start our primry education, the very first things we learn from our parents before we even go into our primary school will be, "Study hard. Then you will become a lawyer or doctor. In future you will have good life." To express it in a simpler way will be, study hard and work hard in future then you will earn enough money so that you can survive in the society in the future. Let's say now I am doing Civil Engineering. Exams are coming soon. I have to study realy hard to score so that my cert will look NICER in the future. Besides, studying, I did get myself a part time job. Well, it is for the MONEY and also for the job experience. To be frank, if it wasn't because the manager intend to train me to become a supervisor, I had already quit the job. Why I want to be trained? Part of it, I want to learn something new. However, "this learning attitude" might have been cultivated from the way how I think that I should have good working experience so that people will hired me in the future after I graduate. Which in the end goes back to I must get a job so that I can earn some money to support myself and also repay my parents.

Well, this if our life. Each and everyone of us. Especially the 40+ people who are currently online in the facebook because they are bored of they consistant "last minute" revisions before the exam.

When I was a kid, I like photography. How I always have grab the old model canon camera whenever my family goes for trips. Even though, I always screwed up the pitures I took. I still like to go trough the pictures after they were being developed. You can't blame me. The old cameras do not have anti-shock, stabilizer thingy or anti-whatever thing to make your pictures prefect nowadays even for a noob to use. One thing I have learn from the society is, how secure you are as a photographer compare to be an engineer?

Obvious answer? It will be as an engineer. Well, I was thinking about this just now as I watch the movies. This goes back to money. My responsibility to earn money as well as to give my parents a good life for bringing me up. If we view from another from another point, maybe these responsibility for making money might have been derived from our LOVE for our parents and family. Maybe this is the way of expressing love, that is trough resposibilities which goes back to "MAKE MORE MONEY".

All the romance that we watch from movie might no longer exist anymore. How do you know that your partner are with you because they love you for who you are? Maybe they do. Who you are, is a rich person and had a stable income or life which they can depend on. Well, it is the basic criteria. If you want to build a happy family in the future, what do you need? Back to the basic, money. BO LUI JIAK HAM MI?? Translation: What do ou want to eat ir you have no money?. You want a happy and loving family? Go make money.

Beieve it or not. This is true. How I really admire those people who are still able to lead a simple life like those in the movie. I always, 'lead a simple life to other'. Sadly, I am not doing it. I do want a simpler life.

There is nothing That I can do. I have to go back to my studies after taking a bath to refresh myself. Maybe I can imagine myself with a 'CAMERA' and also an ipod listening to my favourite songs somewhere in the mountains with trees, and rivers. The best will be during winter where the white snow covered the whole area for me to take picture and lead my life enjoying the world.

'SMACK!!'. I am awake. No worries. Good luck to those having their exam or facing the paper soon. I have to start working for my future as well now.

Anyway, I will be improving my blog soon. This will no longer be a stranded and shabby looking blog which I post things randomly. IPOD coming soon and I will have time to choose the songs I wanted to go with this blog from my collections.

紫色的雪

Sharing another song by 爱戴.

Here is the lyrics:
紫色的雪-爱戴

在这样一个冰冻的季节
好想落下一场紫色的雪 至少我的世界和这黑夜
能够变的温暖一些

依稀还记得童年的一切
和伙伴一起玩耍的情节 那一幕一幕的现在想起
还是那么亲切

天空天空天空下紫色的雪
那是那是那是童话的世界
在一点一点离开我身边
一步一步的慢慢走远

天空天空天空下紫色的雪 那是那是那是梦里的情节
飘飘洒洒的下了一整夜
一刻都不停歇

在这样一个冰冻的季节
好想落下一场紫色的雪
至少我的世界和这黑夜 能够变的温暖一些

依稀还记得童年的一切 和伙伴一起玩耍的情节
那一幕一幕的现在想起
还是那么亲切



虽然世界总在变
也不能再回到从前 可是在我心里
永远不能磨灭

天空天空天空下紫色的雪
那是那是那是童话的世界
在一点一点离开我身边
一步一步的慢慢走远

天空天空天空下紫色的雪 那是那是那是梦里的情节
飘飘洒洒的下了一整夜
一刻都……
天空天空天空下紫色的雪
那是那是那是童话的世界
在一点一点离开我身边
一步一步的走远

Well... Back to my revision.

Hmmmm.. Next question!!

Shin Chan

Exam coming soon!!

Again I am bored. Staying in front of the laptop most of the time. Reading from the net, studying the notes, doing revisions and etc. =.=

Well, luckily I have Shin Chan. One of the best Anime from Japan ever.I really admire the 5 year old kid in the show. Living a life with no worries doing whatever he feel good and enjoy his life.

K... Get back to study...

Ipod Nano 5th!?

Rumors had it that Ipod Nano 5th generation will be out soon. When you have an ever growing collection of music, then you will be thinking of storing them in a bigger space but smaller device so that you can bring them around and listen to them. I shall now wait for September to kick in as rumors are saying that the device will be release around September this year.

I shall wait. Or I will get the 4th generation now and get another one later on?

Lesson learned

Lesson learned? Well, Kicking one of the group mate out of one of the assignment is one of the meanest things I had ever done. Feeling bad? A little. But feeling ad doesn't help me putting back the name in. The fucking lazy retard should learn that, if no effort was being put into the assignment then there will be no marks for him.

All the other group mates actually agree to this. I have nothing else that I can do. Well, now, he had changed. Screw the whole incident.

Sick!?!?

Finally, my body nearly crash. Luckily with enough sick and fluid consumption, I am able to recover with just an overnight sleep. Luckily, working shift had been taken over by a friend and assignment nearly done my my mates. All I have to do now is to finalised everything and see which area need to be improve and corrected. Suddenly I have the urge to post this post because I am listening to a song my Celine Dion. Title, "My Heart Will Go On".

My Heart Will Go On

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Well, this is the best love song I had ever heard though. It is also the theme song for one of the best love movie ever made, "Titanic".

Besides "Titanic", another movie that I love is also "Independent Days". I think most of the people around my age will know bout these two movies. They are old but they are the best.

Place more trust.

While waiting for the file to be finish downloading, I willingly let myself being distracted by my laptop for a bit. Well, the downloading file trough MSN is really slow.

Place more trust. All these while I don;t think I trust the people around me. Maybe. No matter in what I am doing I prefer to take control of everything, making sure that it will go smooth. Just last few weeks, my friend shouted at me jokingly, "You don't trust me?". To be frank, "NO!". From the way he does his work, "FUCK IT!". 

Right now, same thing is happening. My group mates all sleeping. Before they sleep, one of them ask whether I am sleeping or not. Deep down, 'If I sleep, all of us wil definitely get a zero'. How can I trust that they will be able to finish it when they wake up later. 

FUCK IT.. Better go back to work while waitng for the file to finish downloading.

Morning!!

Yea. I just woke up. After three hours of nice sleep. I woke up even without the alarm waking me up. Great improvement. Suddenly I am craving for DIM SUM. Browsing through the net. I went "...". Well, I will go during the holiday. I am too lazy rght due to all the workload I am having now. 

Well, currently I have manage to grab a hold on al the episodes of crayon shin chan. Right before my exams. I am controling myself for not watcing them too much.

Hungry? I am hungry right now. What should I eat? Don't bother.

This morning while on the way back home, I heard the song, "Tong Hua" by Guang Liang and a lot of things came fashing in my mind. 

Just read my friend's blog bout "Change". Yea. The song "Tong Hua" always make me realise make me realise how much I had change since I left high school. 

Forget them. I have got lots of new songs to listen now.

Calm

Hectic. Yea, This is life. A common scenario that has een revolving around each of us living on the world right now. Assignments, tests, exams, works, family and friends. Maintaining all these in balance is indeed a big challenge. Each of that is my resposibility and I can't let myself fail in any one of them. 

In maintaining all these, I realise that I am losing my calmness. Mean? I am becoming mean. I realise that even my friends are meaner than me. They even tell the wrong due date for the assignment to other group in result they will hand in their assignment late this week thus getting a "zero'. Well, I nearly told the group that it was due to day. However, I just want to see their reaction in handling it and deep down I know that they can't hand it in in time anyway.

When I lose my calmness, I will tend to make wrong decision and in result I will screw things up. The ony way for me to cope with all these will be sacrificing my sleep and make more time availabe for me. For me to relax in between and deal with all these things. 

My saviour... "MOTHER". Providing me 160mg of caffeine allowing me to sleep 8 hours only in 48 hours time. Bless this drink creator.

I shall deal my responsibilities patiently and calm. Any mistakes will disappoint the people around me.  

Blog-ing!

Wow, it has been quite sometime since I posted a post here. Have been having a hectic life. Weather turning cool and chilly. My favor type of weather. Assignment, test then later mid-year holiday. Definitely looking forward to the holiday. Time for a break I would I say.

By the way, hope you guys will try coffee with whiskey. Something that my friend mix for me. Taste wise, I have no comment. ^^

Life is short

I am used to saying the phrase, "Life is short. Enjoy life." Such simple phrase to be blurted out but is it hard to achieve? It might not if we don't make our life complicated. It is because happiness is achieveable no matter how long it last.

Well, there is something I want to share here.

"Life is short 

Break the rules 
forgive quickly 
kiss passionately,
love truly 
laugh constantly 
And never stop smiling 
no matter how strange life is 
Life is not always the party we expected to be 

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful"

This was sent to me by a friend. ^^ 

Life being decided by death

" Life being decided by death. "

As I post that pm up, one of my friend popped in and asked wasn't it the other way around.

" Death being decided by life. "

Yea, it should be the other way around. The first caught my attention as I was browsing around. I posted it up because I somehow feel like I understand that phrase very well. 

Well, we should appreciate and cherish our life and let our life decide our death instead of the other way around.

What is sex?

僕ら何千回　泣いても　きっともう一回　乗り越える
不器用なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
今が最終回　最後のチャンス　失敗したって　恐くない
悲しさも　せつなさも　愛しさも　いつか癒せるさ

泣いて泣いて泣いた　日々を背に　僕らもう一回　強くなれ
臆病なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
きっと何万回　倒れても　きっともう一回　乗り越える
君の声　届くだろう　どこまでも　ずっとまっすぐに
~Tears~

What is sex without love?
SEX is SEX.
Caught the Q&A from a comedy. Have been laughing my ass off while watching the comedy. It was hilarious. The name of the movie is "Good Luck Chuck". Interesting movie and maybe you guys should catch it when you are free. It is a good movie even if you take out all the titties scene.

Ok. Forget bout the movie intro. This is just another random post I think. I should be off sleeping and I am tired now.

However, there is also another line which got from the movie.

"What is yours is yours. No matter what happen it will come back to you if it yours."

Believe 中 の "lie"

The title. I got it from a blogger. It was sort of the 10 things she wrote from a website. I found that they are pretty true and except for this one which i don't really understand. Does it means that even though we believe someone, they will lso lie to us at times which we should just ignore it even though we know bout it? Haha.

Today's been a lovely day. Raining heavily for the whole day. Slept for the whole day. Well, I also did schedule up my next week schedule as well as chat with my parents. A day of sleep will really restore myself after a hectic week. 

Before this, I do have things that I wanted to post on the blog. Interesting things I would say. It is weird that I ca't remember any of them right now. Seems like I will have to save them for some other time when they popped up again.

Right now I shall get back to sleep again or I won't e able to wake up later for my game.

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗?

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；

離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；

離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'

然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，

一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，

但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，

就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，

而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，

你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，

當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

Comment

この時代に
生まれてきた限り
この腕で　この胸で　今　受けとめよう
愛を信じて

~ quote in Japanese randomly

Comment. Everyone like to comment on the things they see. Yea, I like to give comments as well. Lately, I just realised that the comments I gave is actually weird. I tend to balance up the comments. For example, if someone criticised an objects, I will tend to give positive comments bout it. If someone tend to give positive comments then I will be giving out negative comments. Rebellious? I don't think I am, I think I just like to balance things out. My friend comment for this is that I am a Libra. Libra likes to balance things out and seek for peace and justice. Seem like I would be better as a lawyer. 

Notice that I am able to type in Japanese. It is not hard. Lately, I have to memorise Chinese words and also polish my Catonese. It wasn't easy. I learned Mandarin language like 12 years ago. Now, I have to learn to write them as well. Lately, I find that I am slowly forgeting the Malaya language which I don't mind at all. In the same time I am improving my Japanese, and learning Hokkien dialects as well. I have friends who actually want me to learn French so that I can visit Mauritius someday. Seem like the amount of language I am going to learn will be sufficient for me to be a translator in future. I will be having another option in my career in future.

In Australia, the amount of immigrants coming over is overwhelming that this country is filled with people from different countries. In a day, it is not surprising that the amount of different languages heard can be more than 4. Mandarin, English, Indian, Korean, Japanese, Greek and etc. Since I am here, I do have people thinking that I am from Hong Kong, China, Malaysia, and Singapore. I am wondering. Where do I belong? Haha. Well, my frined's mum was wondering why I am picking up Hong Kong style during my stay over here. Not bad. I don't mind being mistaken as a HongKie though. ^^

Boardings

The distanced travelled

The distanced travelled on 

longboards. Total is 43.3 km. It was a good experienced. Time taken was around 4.5 hours. I am still a noob. Slowed down the whole journey but I still managed to make my way to the city. 

If I am in it then I will make sure I can do it. ^^

Longboarding. It is not hard to learn. 

Well. Ignore the injuries. They are nothing. Soon, I will post up the close-up on my wounds. Not with bandages on.

When I first learn, I find it hard. Not easy to balance on the board. Having trouble to move around with it. There are two things which we have to learn while we longboard. They are, never be afraid to fall and go with the flow. Something that I always said to my friends last time but I never really implement them in myself till I learn longboarding. When I leard longboarding I was finally be able to understand the two phrase I always tell other people. Especially the one "Go with the flow". People use to say that I am good at "Tao Kai" meaning I am lucky. Well I still remmeber that there is a friend who asked me this, "Sam, did you planned them? I don't think you can get so lucky all the time.". "Well, I am just lucky," I replied. It is not true. Most of the time I did gave them a thought. Thinking how they might end up to be. Afraid of falling.

Now, I know that falling is just part of our life. Even though it was painful, we learn more from falling. Well, most of the time the pain doesn't go away in one or two days. For exampe, my wounds. they have been haunting me for few days now and they are still painful. We will have to endure them and learn to strife for the best in future. For my case now will be longboarding. This storied can practically be applied into our life. Helping us to achieve our goals and dreams. Just keep climbing back up and positioned ourself well after falling.

From the longboarding yesterday, the 34 km along the beach from Mordialloc to City, I also hurt my ankle, my wrist and got sunburnt all over. Felt all that when I was waking up this morning.

Group picture taken beside the beach.

Well, it was fucken awesome. Two trips totalled to more than 70 km in three days. From the pictre, seem like I have to go for a haircut. ^^

Extreme

Extreme. How extreme can I go? 

I am very tired today. Boarded for another 30+ km along the beach again. Muscle aching, joints hurting and the injuries. 

I better sleep early though. Haha. ^^

Bak Kut Teh

Waliao. Bak Kut Teh. One of the things I missed back in Malaysia. The hot and steamy soup served wth pork's part. Additional fried chinese dough and eating them with rice. NICE! DELICIOUS! thanks to a friend who is doing a reserch on that now. I am hungry.

Why can;t anyone bring that recipe to Melbourne and sell it here. They will be able to make freaking lots of money. It will be special here. They can just sell it at the Chinese area here. I bet that a lot of Chinese will just flock into the resteaurant and eat. Maybe it will be able to attract or make those locals favor it. 

I am just posting this at random as I am hungry and lazy now. The reasons I am giving myself to be lazy is, my feet, knee and arm hurt. Nice. ^^

MCD anyone? We can board there now.

Bloggers

Recently someone asked me whose blog do I followed. Well, it can be calculated. There are only four bloggers' blogs which I followed for quite sometime or since they start their blog. Proudly to say, they are Kennysia, Debbie, Ice and Nicole. I am now actually considering not to follow Nicole's blog anymore. Her blog is getting ridiculous. After answering my friend's questions, I tried to browse some other blogs. 

I won't say that I am a good blogger. I would say that my blog's entries are ridiculous. Why am I writing all these entries at the first place. Seem like I am making a fool of myself. Well, this is just a crappy public blog. After browsing some blogs from friends such as Han Foong's, Siu Foong's, Cheah's, Suat Ling's, and finally Chanelle's. It has been a long time since I contact this first friend in Melbourne of mine. 

One of her latest entry is true. Her title is "Guys, do you know how to earn MONEY?

". I find that the thing she said in there is somehow very true for a lot of guys out there. Patience. The thing that we are lacking of. Yea, guys always think that by being successful, they will be able to win the heart of the girls they admire. In the whole process, they will be going for it ignoring everything around them. They have forgot to be patience and slow down for the people around them. Funny eh. 

Lately, a friend just migrated here. He got a point rght. If he is still back in Malaysia, he will still be spending most of his time in 'Mamak' chatting bout non-sensible things such as the politics, so called future, business and money. In the end we forgot to take action. I might have taken some action. They are 'so called' action compare to what I am doing now. Yea, I can recalled that pretty well. Because that is one of the reason I choose to come over to Australia. Haha.

Well, there is one thing I don't disagree in her blog. A girl always stay last in a guy's heart. Well, I think most of the guys will think that what the girls want. That is why they made the mistake.

Inspirations

After reading a few blogs, it kinda inspire me to update my blog. Personally, I don't follow up with much blogs. Somehow the few blogs that I followed had been quite interesting lately.

First of all I would like to give credits to Google Chrome (the web browser), Latest MSN Messenger Life, and google map. Google Chrome is a highly recommended web browser beside Mozilla as its has a lot of features which make browsing trough the website an easier life. You will have to download and try it for yourself in order for you to fucken know the difference. The latest MSN Messenger live, new layout, new features such as the video display and etc is fun. Merging the messenger with messenger plus giving a near complete chatting tools. I won't say that it is 100% complete as there are still room for improvements. Right now my friends know very well when I am available for chats. I am sorta always available. Now I online 24/7 and basically they can just leave me a message there. Google map. It has been making my life easier by planning my routines for joggings and boardings. With pictures, cameras and also distance calculations, I can plan my routines according to my mood.

Technologies. They are just getting better and better.

Yet to be edited.................

Religion

New religion. Christ-Bud? Christbud? This new religions is for those buddhists who go to Sunday School. I finally realised that a lot of buddhist parents actually like to send their kids to Sunday School. Well, you learn about Christianity in Sunday School. So we have come out with a new religion call Christbud. 

It if for those who believe in Buddhism but do not mind listening to Christianity's teachings. 

Sound weird and wrong? Yea, I think so. I post this up with a fucking blur mind. 

Just woke up from sleep. ^^ 

Lunar calendar 16th

Lunar calendar 16th. The night which the moon are at its roundest. Basically I like the moon an the date of every month in the lunar calendar. Well, I will have to wish everyone a late "Happy Valentine's Day". Don't mistaken. The chinese valentine's day is on the 15th of the first month in the lunar calendar. Well, another valentine's day coming as well. Hope you guys will enjoy it.

Talking bout the topic "Human like to be observed". This theory is said to be scientifically proven. If its wrong then I won't be here sitting down on my bed writing this blog. I am also another normal human being. Last night, something "KAO" happened. A friend of mine which goes by the name of , Kyle Chen, actually jogged for 7km from his house to Monash Clayton at night. And in the end he ended up walking back to his house again which mean another 7km of walk. I will have to highlight his achievement as he claimed that he too like to be observed. 

The "KAO" thing is, he came all the way here to Monash University car park and went long boarding. After finish the session, he then walked home. Whole night doing working out which include push up in between as well. Hype uo lifestyle I guess. 

Longboarding went well yesterday. I didn't know that we actually improved so much after trying out a few steep downhills around. It wasn't long long before we started this. Personally  think it is great. We are thinking of making a new video soon. Gonna practised video making of our longboarding expedition too. 

Anyway, that is the update for today. It has been a kinda fucked up day for me as both of us didn;t sleep for the whole night for the longboarding practise. Anyway, an early "Happy Valentine's Day" to you guys out there.

あつい。。

きみわあついですね。

Well, this is Australia. They even have bush fire today at Endeavour hills due to the hot weather which the temperature can go as high as 44 C. Basically, due to the over demand for electricity, the transformer in the power plant in Victoria even exploded. Causing the West Victoria to experience power failure. Oh yea, it did cause us some trouble when we go around looking for a nice place for dinner. All the shop actually are closed due to the power failure. 400 trains being cancelled. What else can possibly go much more worst than this in Melbourne.

Nothing? Haha. 

Oh yea, I can't even go long boarding today after yesterday experience. I tumble over on the road in the middle of the night. I wanted to long board again but I am having my exam tomorrow. I am not risking my paper just because I injured myself during boarding session. Argh.. 

Patience....... Few more days and I will be done with this semester.

Oh yea.. The girls. They are just so similar to the weather. When the weather get too hot, we just can't stand it. So when the girls are too hot then I can't stand it too. Haha. Not forgeting that they too are unpredictable like the weather. 

CNY!?!?

CNY stands for Chinese New Year. Chinese New Year is not something that great. That is what I think. To me it is a good time for us to gather around as family or friends to meet up once a year. That's all. Well, maybe I should rephrase. It is good to have such festival for you to 'reconnect' yourself with them. 

In Melbourne, don't really feel much though. Friends do have dinner together over here and trying to make it interesting. It is good to know that they actually went trough the trouble to make these celebrations here for CNY.

Yea. I am still fucked up. I think it has been the 2nd night I am awake. This morning, my friend comment. "You are so fucked up." Well, I was awake whole night and went to gym early in the morning. "You are fucked up." by the same guy just now at Mcdonald. Well, I did not sleep for the whole day. I should be sleeping now? I still have to go to Melbourne Exhibition Centre to set up the booth. Yea, set up the booth for one of Australia biggest exhibition event, The Reed Gift Fair. Sorry guys, it is not open to public. Want to come into the fair, either you join as a member or contact us and we will get you a visitor pass.

I am crapping now. My mind wasn't functioning. Beside not sleeping, I even had around 6 bottles of beer plus red wine. After all that and I can still finish a past exam. Wondering why my body can handle it.

Sidetrack

Like always. People influence me easily. Easily got sidetrack. I should be studying. I have around 10 more hours to study hard. Guess that I have to really switch everything off and study. Have been viewing on different londboards. IT is an alternative transport for the current situation that the world is facing. Economic crisis where all the price is increasing for everything things around us. 

"Longboard. You just have to buy it once for around 400 USD. And you can use it for a long time without worrying bout the petrol price."

Currently this is the board I am eye-ing at. I will have to get it shipped from US.

I can board a bit now. Can't do tricks yet. Yesterday practise kinda screw my leg up. Using weights while boarding seem kinda tricky. I will really need to get my own board and practise. Then I will be able to board to campus instead of walking. The board that I am eye-ing at is a Torpedo 40". It is good for cruising as well. Can go around travelling and cruising with that. Cool? Oh yea, it is good for carving too.

Basically the Torpedo is the product of a company call "Original". 

Have a look at the video and you will know what Torpedo is all about.

Personally, I also prefer Apex 37".

Fucked up

Life before the exams can be very fucked up. I just woke up. At 9pm. Guess that I can stay up whole night long to study. And my fucking leg hurt.

How should I make my bog meaningful for today?

Maybe I can recommend the album by Taylor Swift. The title of the album is 'Fearless'. I find it nice. Still in the process of enjoying it so I can;t give much comment right now.

Besides, I have a new blog to intro I guess. http://debblogy.blogspot.com/.. It is a new blog by my friend. 

爱情

岑经有一份至真的爱情摆在我面前，

但是我没有去珍惜，

到没有的时候，先至后悔莫及。

这世界最痛苦莫过比此。

如果天可以给个机会我反回头的话,

我会同这个女人说 ‘我爱你’。

如果是要在这份爱情上加上一个期限，

我希望是一万年。

                                      -Stephen Chow-

These words, I had them with me for quite sometime. I still remmeber before my last exam around the month of October, while I was studying for my coming exam during that time, I had a conversation with a friend which lead to the findings of these words. We have to stream Stephen Chow movie to get the words. Spending the whole night looking for the words instead of studying. As for this semester, I end up typing them out. I found this paper with my old notes. 

That time after looking at the words, I end up reading them over and over again. There might be some words different from the original as I end up writing them in mandaring instead of cantonese. 

Today is Chinese New Year eve. Woke up late since I only manage to catch my bedtime early this morning. After I woke up, I went to the gym and end up wasting my time today. 'Shitty' day, I guess. Have to start studying soon I think. Wasting my time reading blogs. At least my favourite blogs did update themselves. Kennysia and another one is a blog of my friend. Kennysia had never failed to update me with news as well as fill my brain with craps. My friend has never fail to pour her feelings into the blog making it 'touche'.

Lately, my time is kinda occupied. Well, I have learn not to use the word 'busy' as well as 'too little time' and 'no time'. These words. I, now consider them selfish words used by human who do not know how to manage their time and end up neglecting the people arond them. I manage to find myself balancing my time though. I hope so. Cause I just learn to do so.

Felon

Don't run away from who you become, embrace it and grow from it.

                                                                                                         - John Smith

"Taken from the movie 'Felon'."

Nice Pic

Light headed. Lack of sleep. Thanks to all the presentationa and assignments. Well, thanks to all the hard work, our presentation is excellent compare to others. I was asleep while listening to others. No offense. I will really fail other group. They don't even know how an engineer is supposed to give presentation.

Well, in this post i will be showing u guys a picture. I find it interesting. 

Basically it is a picture of a dead possum. If you look at the picture closely, you will be able to see a pinkish small creature beside the possum. It is the baby possum. From the picture, you can see that the mother possum was ripped of at the stomach and bleed to death. From this, we assume that the baby possum actually ripped of the mother stomach and came out into the atmosphere. However, it is still not ready yet and died together with the mother.

(The whole situation is some crap by Fendy. The photographer.)

This picture is consider normal to all the movies I had watched lately. Have been watching gruesome movies. Mostly involves cannibalisme. All these B-rated movies were well made. A few example would be, Rise of the Blood Hunter and Doomsday. 

Today, I was watching Rise of the Blood Hunter wile eating my dinner. Happily slicing my chicken thights, and watch the couple in the movie eating a life human. =.= I did stare at my chicken awhile before I continue eating.

Deal

Deal? Well, it is not the movie deal or not deal. It is the movie 'Deal' in year 2008. I like that movie even thoug it is kinda boring in the beginning. First of all it is bout the game of Poker. Second of all, I learn something from it. 

Poker. What do I like bout playing poker? It is all bout mind game. On the table I can choose to be anyone I want. Honest player? Deceiving player? I don't really mind bout losing in a game of poker. Maybe because I have been betting small on the game. It doesn't really bother me. Good point is, when I feel like I want to win then I will be winning in the table. 

Nah, I don't learn on how to play poker from the movie. I am not saying that I am a good poker player as well. I have learn something. Better than that. For those who have access to my personal blog will be able to know bout it. 

As for today, coudy morning. Good weather to laze around a bit. I have been doing my assignment for the whole day yesterday and today will be the same day. However, we need to go to some factory today to complete our assignment on Engrineering Process. Sam is lazy for gyn session again today. Well, I still work out a bit at home. So far, I am starting boxing soon. Might take up long boarding as well. Before that I will have to focus on finishing this semester first. I should. It is finishing in this month time.

Oh yea.. One more thing, early morning with a glass of milk is still my favourite way to start my day. No matter how much booze I drink, I still prefer a cold glass of milk. Still the same ehh...

Seasonal blogger

I am a seasonal blogger. I will suddenly update a lot of posts and suddenly quiet down. Blogging actually is tobuild my momentum on the study desk. It is in order for me to do my assignments and also my studies later on.

Today, I have to let my body rest from all the workouts. Fucking tired. So, what is interesting today?

I had watched two movies today. Both whacky movies. Meet Dave as well as The Wackness.

What did I earn from them?

Meet Dave, (What is the feeling of love and can you demonstrate it? When you feel it, you will no longer need the explanations.) 

The Whackness. Well, in this movie, we can see how screw up this world is for a ot of people. How they lead their scew up life and in the mean time struggling hard trying to achieve their goals in life. Do they have goals in the movie? I think one of them does. 

Basically, I am waiting for my friends laptop to fnish up the assignment which is due later. Just reformat my laptop. It feels that it is a brand new laptop. Nice and smooth. If only my life is ike my laptop. Once I have problem, I can just use one or two hours and reformat the whole thing. Then I can start all over again completely forgetting the past. Haha. I was just joking.

Well, besides that, today another chaos happened again. 3 guys trying to cook their dinner causing a whole mess in the kitchen once again. At least tody is better than before. Improvement. I am starting to think. I might have found somehting else that is fun to do. My friend always jkingly ask me to start a new life with a new name. It might be fun though. Since I am in a new country. Well, Australia still seem new to me. To be frank I always think that I can disguise as students from different country. Latest one is, people think that I have Canada accent. That is new. Maybe with my new name I can form a team like the movie Ocean. Since I have found two people to join in. It wil not be hard I guess. Just that we have to find talented people. Talented, commited and also perfectionist. The basic criteria.

What else. What happened today that send me thinking? Nothing else... 

8th Jan

8th Jan 09. Nice date. Woke up early and fresh? Yeap. I am fresh. After a 5 hours of early sleep due to slight headache last night. I think I had defined my goal for this year last night in the blog. Kinda blurry about what I had written. Well, you will be writing the "original things" when you are blurry. Human, they are easily being blinded when they are awake. Blinded by their thoughts. Their so called thoughts that they thought is essentials and important. Mostly the thoughts are just reasons for they themselves or things that they call problems. Or maybe blinded by what is in front of them now. The have forgot bout what they really want deep down and forgot to learn on how to fight for it or appreciate it.

Wow. How come I am saying all these early in the morning. Seem like I am able to wake up early this morning.

Flashback

Flashback. I have been here nearly for the whole year of 2008. I have been trough even more last year. I have learn about a lot of things. Seen a lot of things. I do still remember how I ended up here. Ended up in Australia. On the 14th of February then it will be a year. I still remember how I have to rush around to settle my things when I arrived here. It is surprising that Shimpei too arrived on the same date as I.

To think of it, when I have to make the decision to come here, it only took me one night. Just one night I have to work out on all the cons and pros of coming over to here. That is excluding the incident which happened to my family before I leave. When I think back, it wasn't easy for me to make the decision. I always tell others that,"My mother asked me to choose either Actuarial science or Engineering but I chosen engineering instead". It is true that my mum gave me the options to choose. But for me to take any decision, I always had a lot of outcomes running in my mind. Like Rach said, "I think too much".

Coming over suddenly does make me feel weird. But in the mean time, I do not stop there feeling weird. I know what I have to do. Maybe nobody knows what is my year 2008 resolutions. At that year my resolution is to get a kick start in my career path. I have got blinded by the resolution that year but in the end I manage to achieve good results in that year. Yea, I finally manage to kick start something even though I am still in my studies.

Few days ago, I manage to chat with a long lost "Best Friend" of mine. It has been a year since we chat with each other. The last time we met and chat with each other was exactly on the 1st of January 2008. We did have a good chat. Then something she said that made me contemplated for a moment at that time. "Now you got friends, family, relationship, business, and etc. You are the perfect man now." I would not agree to that. Maybe to some people a perfect man is that kind of man. To me a perfect man is someone that is able to protect and look over all the people around him. Maybe it is a traditional way of thinking but a man will really have to focus on their career first at a certain point of their life. Even though they might have family, friends or even a relationship, how will they be able to maintain all these without knowing the facts that they do not have a career or to make it simple, an income? That is the main reason I why I have decided to come over to Australia.

In Malaysia, even when I do part time jobs, I do not take them seriously. Even in studies, I have been taking things for granted from my parents. Many others do not see it but I do. I am living my life and I know what is going around with my life. To be frank, deep down I was afraid. Before coming here, I was afraid that in future, I won't be able to achieve anything and let everyone around me down. Most of the time, I do feel that my family have high hopes for me. However, with the way I am leading my life in Malaysia, I know I will fail them. That is why I have to make the decision to come over here.

I do have things that I am afraid of. In this blog, I will be putting a bit of my thoughts and feelings into it. I do learn something from last year too. That is to let people know what we actually are feeling and also thinking. Yesterday, when I was chatting with my cousin. I do feel good when I actually tell him that he can stay over and feel free to contact me if he needs any help since he is coming over here to Australia soon. It is true that I choose my current place of living because I was getting ready in case he is coming. It is also true that I did not tell anyone about this. So, it is not surprising that he didn't know about it. Well, even if you want to help others too, you got to speak out and tell them.

Well, I am a bit dizzy here. Another birthday celebration just now I guess. Never drink on an empty stomach. It really gets you high. Maybe I have high metabolism. It got absorbed into my body very fast. Yea. Very fast. Just now during dinner we do have interesting topics. It is true that we can buy anything in this world right now. Including friends. My friend ask me to send an email to all those who are in Australia, stating that there will be a free Karaoke on this Saturday. I guess all will come. Definitely. Pity shit. I have no problem telling people now, among all my friends, I only trust 4 of them. Yea, only four. One I know from primary school. Two I know from my high school. One is different school but doing law in UK now. Cause they know what I am thinking about. That simple.

Yea. Life is simple. I prefer to project that to other no matter how complicated the things are to me. As for this year resolutions. I will bring my team name up to IDAHO, USA. Nah, my name is not important. If you guys are in my team that means you trust me then I will use my time to work with you guys. So far, our name is already in Victoria. That is just a small step. Malaysia? Nah.. I am not really interested. I always aim higher and go for it. We as perfectionist will go for things that we have confidence in. If not we will prefer to let go or put it aside. So far, don't keep me those bullshit bout envy about our opportunity and you do not have time for it. If you really want it then ride in the boat with me. I don't care bout what you guys have and who you are. If you are in my team then we will work this trough together. My new year resolution. I know I am having my "high education" and also my career now. Then I will just need to work for it now.