2010

2010 is ending and a new year will arrived soon. Wave your hand to 2010 and shake your hand with 2011.

Lately, I find that I know what do I want in my lives. I won't put up a new year resolution. To me, I will have new resolution whenever I find that I need to have one. It is pointless to make a new year resolution when we don't accomplish it. Resolution should be something we realise what we should do and do not do from time to time.

Excel in Civil Engineering industry and open up my own bar. That should be my future goal. It will be fun. Seem like I really enjoy these two careers. Civil, I have the ability to design and construct for the future, while bartender, I have the ability to enjoy a couple of drinks with my family and friends and spent some quality time together.

Man, he just have to work hard to achieve all his dreams in his short life span. There is nothing much to it. If his dream is to save the world, then he will have to get out there and work his ass off in saving the world. If his life he has people that he care, then he will have to put his life on the line to protect them. For his career and interest, he will have to keep driving himself to achieve something out of it.

Ups and downs will always be along the way, but by conquering them will make you feel like you are achieving something. I do have my ups and downs. My likes and dislikes. I learn to overcome them or go by them. I learn not to complain but to believe in me.

there are times that I will feel tired, but I will definitely take out sometime to rest and relax before I move on again. I have learn not to emo. I have learn not to bear grudge. I have learn to live by the things I dislike but not to forget them as they have make me who I am today and teach me some valuable lessons.

2011. the mistakes that I have made before that year, will not repeat itself again. Even if its to repeat again then I will learn from it again. Each time I failed, it means I am a step closer to my success.

I wish everyone that I know, best of luck for the future and strive for what you believe in. ^^

Dedication

This holiday is dedicated to complete some of the things that I should have completed in year 2010. Upgrade my knowledge on bartending,  learn up the Autocad, get my diving license, and save up some money.

This week has been a busy week. Working non stop for six days. Tiring. There are times I wished I could have just buy the ticket back to Malaysia and go, "Dad, I have got no more money." It would have make my life a whole lot easier and enjoy my whole summer travelling around Malaysia.

It is time for me to take up some responsibilities.

Bars

Everyone have places that they like to hang out at. For me, I like beaches and mountains but I only can go to those places during trips or holidays. During work or study, whenever I am stressed or down, I love to go to bars. So far in Australia I have not found any bars that I like. Untill recently I found Der Raum.

In Malaysia, I love Sky Bar. High above at the the rooftop of the Traders Hotel, have a few sip of drinks and the view across the Kuala Lumpur city at night is awesome. The cold wind brushing across your face with a band playing some music in front. AWESOME!

It has been a long time since I gave that place a visit. The last time I went there was with my best friend. A week before she left for her further study in Edinburgh. I still remember that night, she ordered a chocolate based flavoured cocktail while I ordered a kiwi based flavoured cocktail.

The day before yesterday, after hanging out in city, I went to Der Raum. Der Raum is to be pronounced "The Room" in some foreign language. I was to meet up with my friends but I got there earlier. Upon reaching the bar, I can't see what i happening inside. A great hideout.

Pushed open the door, a few people sitting in front of the bar and some sitting in groups enjoying the drinks. I got myself a seat in from of one of the bartender named Steph and she gave me an opening drink before I ordered the "Pharmacy". One of their classic in year 2008.

While enjoying my drinks, I was entertained by the bartender's flair while making drinks for the others. It was amazing. The scent of each cocktails made by them did came by around me and I was thrilled each time I see a new cocktail been made.

They are good. Really good. If I want to be that good, or maybe to achieve half of what they have, I will have to get a new place to work. I will have to have a car and get ready to work all night. Time to sacrifice my health again I would say. It's all for my interest.

End of Another Trip

My trip to China had ended. I would say it is a trip with a very good start, exciting and tiring flow, and ended with a superb night in a club in Nanjing.

21 hours trip from Clayton, Australia to Danyang, China. My friends' home town. China was way different from what I had imagined all this while. I had always imagined it to be a polluted, busy, and unfriendly place. I was wrong.

I am tired now to post a detail trip. Just would like to thanks my friends and also apologised. They were dead worry about me when I slipped away one night to bar and club till 6am in the morning. They thought I was kidnapped or being abducted for my internal organs.

At Xi Hu in Hang Zhou. Beautiful lake where one of the awesome scholar always spend his time there. Soh Dong Po.

After Exam Party!!

No more Exams! No more Assignments! No more Deadlines! For three whole months. AWESOME!

It is freaking awesome.

Yesterday, went to Cho Gao and Alumbra Club, they are al right but I wanted to go to Der Raum and Supper Bar very badly. I wanted to.

It is still fun. A couple of drinks. Loud music blasting into the ears. Hot ladies all around you. Standing by the bar having a few shots and sips now and then, and look at other people having one hell of a night.

Down the dance floor, there will be groups of girls dancing around. Some couple dancing together. Some guys going around trying to fish for some ladies to dance with or to grope on. Nothing to be said. What happen in the club stay there.

I had a cocktail with 7 different shots in it. Don;t even know the name but it is good. I only manage to catch that there was the Sloe Gin, and Vodka. I don;t even know what else is in it.

Nov 11

The date, 11th Nov. The day for the singles. Happy Being Single everyone!

Tomorrow shall be my final paper. Time really passed by very fast. I will be taking my leave from work tomorrow. I need a break of the work too. Visiting Der Raum tomorrow, running around the city clubbing, drinking, and flirting? Maybe.

I had just finished watching the movie, "The Time Traveller's Wife". I like the movie. Watched it a few times and yet it didn't get me bored.

Being to know the day when you are going to day is a gift. Unlike people who died in tragic accident not having the time to prepare the things before their death. If I know when I am going to die then I would everyone around me behind. I definitely will. I am a selfish person. I could bear that kind of scene. The scene of losing something.

I still got a bit to revise on. a little bit to go. Then I am ready for tomorrow exam. I am tired of this life. I can't wait to travel to China. Visiting some of the awesome historical sites, bars, scenery, and meeting great people.

Morning Song Sharing

陶晶瑩 - 女人心事 歌詞 :

作詞:陶晶瑩 作曲:陶晶瑩,黃韻玲
編曲:黃韻玲 製作:黃韻玲

東區的咖啡座 幽暗的沙發裡
總有幾張 熟悉的臉
那種聰明 代點防衛的氣質
想放棄 卻又不甘心的樣子

越過她的肩膀 空洞洞的視線
摩登女子 灰色心事
那種以為 自己什麼都可以
喝了酒 卻又哭的像個孩子

我聽見(愛我的人在哪邊)渴望的淚
我看見(傷心的故事一遍遍)我的從前

曾經 我也痛過我也恨過怨過放棄過
在自己的房間裡 覺得幸福遺棄我
如果 沒有分離背叛的醜陋
怎麼算是真愛過

請你 試著相信一愛再愛不要低下頭
別怕青春消逝 就不信單純的美夢
我在這岸看著你游
為妳的堅持感動
妳會的 有一天 會幸福的

Finally, Thoughts for Today

No worries. I am just sharing a nice song that I have just heard it from Facebook. New Hong Kong drama or a new Hong Kong movie?

Sitting in front of my pc getting my mood on to study for the last paper which will be on Friday. Today paper wasn't really good. Seem like this semester is not as easy as I thought it is. I had been taking things a bit too easy this semester.

The look of my room's floor yesterday. It was before my Geo paper.

My table. Coke, mother, sweet, cranberry juice, and not to forget my notes, had all been my companion for the entire time while I was preparing for my exams.

The overall look of the messing room. Filled up bin, papers all over the floors. Table filled with things.

My bed, with my clothes. They are all washed but I do not have time to fold them yet.

Lying outside on the field after my paper today. The blue blue sky with scorching sun warming the land. Temperature of the day is 28 degrees. Approaching summer and it just feel so good lying under the sun enjoying the moment of one paper down.

A room which is literally cleaner. Cleaner and tidier.

I got myself the book. "The Ultimate Bar Book". The one I had read once at the Borders for the whole day. I had finally decided to buy it for my own convenience.

This book is awesome. Introducing spirits, liqueurs, and wines from all over the world. A few extensive cocktails and descriptions.

Last paper. The bridge structure design exam is on Friday. It has been divided into 2 parts. I shall finish my part 1 revision by tonight. Tomorrow I will finish part 2. Thursday I will look trough and Friday shall be the day.

Tales Listening

I like to listen to tales from other people. I like to listen and try to understand and try to experience the tales told by them.

I might later on forgot about the tales told by them but at least I had experience it through my imagination for a short moment.

Later I will be having my Geo-engineering exam in less than 12 hours time.

These few days, a few things got me wander back into my past. Tales from others triggered the memories that seem to have faded away.

Mistakes that should not have done had been done.

Few days ago, Emily told me that she had lost trust in guys. Deep down, I don't blame her. Even me myself do not believe myself in a relationship.

Fading

Yesterday while walking to the train station I came across a song. It reminds me of the songs you burned for. The songs that I used to play in my car. Songs that I can even sings along with it.

Your eyes, your smile, and you just appeared in my mind again. It was only for a moment. Are you fading away in my memories?

Seem like I do not have to force myself to forget about something. They will just fade away as with the time.

Looking at my messy room. It needs some tidying. I will do it tomorrow after the Geo-engineering paper. Cans of Mother, bottles of cranberry juice, chips bags, plate, glasses, clothes everywhere, and papers everywhere.

Guys will always be Guys.

The Chance

Chance doesn't come by everytime.

Today I wasn't sure whether Emily had helped me out or it is just that the manager feel that I am ready.

When I am back from China, I will be officially be working and be trained in the bar. It is awesome!

I am all fired up.

Found the Song again.

Reunion

Suddenly I had this vision. A vision that you guys are in front of my place. My bar where I am serving you guys drinks and we are having a good time catching up with each other.

In life there are time that you hope that you can move further forward and leave some things behind for the moment. You won't want to forget them. You just feel like leaving it at that spot and one back for it when the moment is right.

Before this, I used to hope that I can forget things that I should. Later on I have learned that there is no need to forget them. Sad or happy, they are part of me now.

People ask me whether should am I going back to Malaysia. This time, my answer will be a no again. There are things that I will have to accomplish here. This is the right time for me to do so and I will not let the chance slip away.

Whiskey

From Black Label to Blue Label. Then you have some of the finest single malt whiskey, the Glenfiddich 15 years and etc.

Sorry, I am not in the mood to name all the whisky I know. Speaking about whisky, yesterday I nearly missed my last train home because of it. Learning more about whisky from my manager can be time consuming.

Nothing much to talk about. Just woke up in the middle of the night waiting for my paper to start. Another 12 hours and I will finish with my 2nd paper. Boring?

Studying the same topic for a long time can be really tiring and boring. My friend was studying so seriously in the library and I ended up discussing about the graduation trip with another friend. CRAP!!

Comfort Zone

In order to achieve our goals, we will have to leave our comfort zone from time to time.

I gave this subject a thought yesterday while putting my notes aside and I somehow agree with it. In term of study, working, relationship, and etc. Somehow this sentence relates to all of them. It is crucial.

Am I comfortable with my life now? Hell NO!

There is nothing much that I can do but to dedicate my life and time into what I want in future. I don;t complain and ask for help. All I seek is guidance and teachings so that I will not make any mistake. Guide me to seek for perfection in the things I do. Nothing is perfect but we will still have to aim for it.

Right now, I am balancing my life between work and study. Working and training to be a bartender. Studying to be a professional civil engineer in the future. It is not easy. I will still have to face them one by one and concentrate on tackling them.

Is it comfortable? Having dark eye loops. Sore muscle from work. Dead brain cell from study. Eat simple and easy cooked stuffs. Woke up at odd hours or burn midnight oil. Comfortable?

Black Russian

"May I have a Black Russian?"

"HUH!?!?", the most unprofessional reply by me. Can't blame me. I wasn't in the bar yesterday. And yet I manage to get the cocktail done.

Black Russian
- 1 shot of Vodka
- 1 shot of Kahlua
Serve straight to the customer in the old fashion way.

Variation:
Serve in the Martini style or top it up with coke in Collins glass.

However, with or without cola, it doesn't does that great.

White Russian

- 1 shot of Vodka

- 1 shot of Kahlua

- 1 shot of milk

- 1 shot of heavy cream. 

Might taste better since the coffee liqueur will blend nicely with the milk. I myself haven't try it yet.

What am I doing now? Relaxing after covering 6 topics of ROAD study. Eating wicked wings, watching underworld, and having some cocktails popping up in my heads. 

Investigation

Investigation. Engineering Investigation. Hardest? I am not sure yet. My table and floor is filled with papers with my scribbling. Repeatedly writing down notes and doing the problems over and over again just to understand the whole lectures.

Tomorrow is the exam. I know I have prepared well. I am sure of it. 50 objectives and 3 hours to do it. No problem.

Listening to some songs and stared at my black book. I haven't been writing anything in that book. A break from cocktails and bartender-natics. How I wish I can make some drinks now and try various methods. I can't. Have to focus.

A Toblerone,

- What is the difference of it with and without the White Creme de Cacao?

- I do prefer the garnish with honey strips in the colada glass. It really suits Toblerone. Chocolaty taste with a touch of the honey from the side.

It is simple to make a toblerone. There seem to be a lot of variation to it as well.

Basic:

- 15ml Frangelico

- 15ml Kahlua

- 15ml Bailey

- Tablespoon of honey

- 30ml of heavy cream

A refine glass would have:

- 20 ml of White Creme de Cacao

- A scope of vanilla to it

Shake and Strain into a colada glass.

Lately, from observation I realised that my Sex on the Beach had lost its aesthetic value compare to what my manager had made. A light orange pinkish drink with foam filled to the top of the pina colada glass. Truly a drink for the summer by the beach.

Lately I found another drink that I will want to learn and master it. The "Groovy Fizz". Got attracted by the colours. The Crustas, The Crow, Flora Dora, Honeymoon, Citruschka, New Zealand Fruit Kava Lamp, Mojito, Tom Collins, Bijou, Amber, Addington, and etc. I really do enjoy making them and serving them up.

Work hard and own a bar in the house in future. The perfect house bar. Where my family and friends can enjoy a few drinks with no last call.

Trial and Error

I am now getting ready to study. No more cocktails at the moment. I should concentrate on my studies right now. One more month to the end of this semester.

Love and promise. Why be together when you guys are going to break up in the end? Nowadays love and promise are like trial and error. Trial and error is a waste of time in my opinion. However, there won't be any success if there aren't any trials to begin with.

Few days ago, my sis say that I am afraid to commit. It might have been true. Or it might have not been. In a relationship, the trial and error might the only way to find the everlasting relationship but it ain't as easy as mixing a cocktail recipe.

Taking for instance, the classic Martini. It is simple. 5ml of Dry Vermouth, 75ml of Gin, and chuck in a slice of lemon. Some prefer to have the Dry vermouth shake and strain with ice into the chilled Martini glass. Some might like the glass to be coated with Dry Vermouth and have the Gin stir with Ice to a certain proportion and garnished with an olive.

To me, I still don't know how will a Martini being made is suitable for me. To find the perfect glass of Martini for me, I will have to keep trying different method and in the end I will be able to enjoy a glass with suit me.

But a relationship doesn't works that way, in the process of trial and error, a lot will be hurt. I can always pour a glass of Martini that I dislike into the sink but not everything works that way.

Awesome

Awesome people are all around. Yesterday I was surprised. My friend who had been through bartending training is actually an architect as well. He said that he did the training in the bar as a bartender as part time during his study as an architect.

I will not lose as well. I will definitely score in my civil engineer and be a pro bartender. I no longer have the intention of being an average good bartender now. I am aiming to being at least a semi pro.

Lately, I am tired. Assignments, work, and soon exams. My thoughts in the train yesterday are all gone due to my tiredness.

Can't be bother now.

Break Up season

A new season. Spring!!

Also a season for breakups?

Erased

Sometimes, I think that it will be awesome if I can delete others' memories about me.

Closure

Oh yea.. Is this the 01... What is the number again?

Training

Today wasn't busy. The restaurant is exceptionally quiet today and some of the colleagues and I left for home early today.

These two days had been different. Finally, I was able to receive some training in the bar. From cocktail to coffee making. Seems like, coffee making in the western country is more tedious than Malaysia. The coffee bean to the coffee powder, we have to make sure that everything is fresh. There is a limit for each stage. A coffee bean can last for about 24 hours while the coffee powder can only last for 20 minutes once they are being exposed to the atmosphere.

The first cocktail that I made for the customer is the Cosmopolitan. Most people know about this drink. A simple cocktail but is rich in taste. A bit of orange mixed with the berry and a touch of sour taste. It is refreshing.

Yesterday I had made a big mistake. A very big mistake. I should have know about it. It is so simple. I should have used new ice for the shake and strain process but instead I rush into preparing the drink for the customer. Emily said that it wasn't my fault. The ice was becoming watery and the shake wasn't perfect. Well, I knew that the ice was becoming watery when I scoped the ice up. I should have went to the back for more new ice. Even though we are closing the bar soon, I should have. It was a terrible mistake.

Today I had learned something new. Today is the day that I start to like Gin. I still remember the first time I tried Gin was during a Kuantan Trip with my friends during college. At that time none of us like it and we practically used it to clean the dishes. So called, alcohol will killed the bacteria so we decide to replace the dish detergent with Gin instead. What a waste.

Gin really taste good once we know the right way of handling it. I learned to appreciate the herb taste in it. Seem like, it is true that the best way to enjoy a Gin is to have it chilled and straight.

One of the reason why I learned up bartending is to learn to appreciate the spirit and liqueur. Before this, the only thing I know about them is to get high and drunk with them. I do not care about the taste. Even though some of them do taste horrible when was mixed with green tea but we still had it just for the sake of getting high.

Imagine getting high and wasted with a 30 years old Chivas and then bragged about it the next day. Amateurs.

"WOW, last night we had this expensive 30 years old Chivas. It was 500 bucks a bottle. We were fucking high."

I think 30 years ago, the person who made this batch of Chivas was really hoping that we can enjoy the whisky properly. It is not easy to age the whisky for 30 years. The person might even be dead by the time the batch of Chivas is being marketed. All his hard worked and dedications is for a bunch of fools to brag about getting high on expensive spirits. It is sad.

Sex and Love

It is normal for the society to view guys as bad. Especially for the asian culture. Guys are well known for being unfaithful towards love and tends to be cheat in a relationship more easily.

Guys are bad because they can separate sex and love. As for the ladies, sex and love come together.

As argue by the guys, for some guys, love sometimes do come with sex but after the sex.

I wasn't really sure about that. There is no point for me to argue or justify anything here as I am just another ordinary guy and I won;t know what I will do in future.

When I was a small boy, the thing I learn is I get to own the things I like and love. As I grow older, I learn that there are things that we can;t own it even though we love them. I also learned that admiration, like, and love are all three very different things. Very different. In life, a lot of people tend to get confused with these three things with their feelings and thus made life complicated.

Life wasn't that complicated in the past. Girls aren't allow to mingle and the telecommunications are that advance.  Right now, everyone is free to communicate and mingle with each other. Feelings among us tend to get more complicated. It is beneficial because we all gets more choices but it also creates more problem and complicate things.

Things should just be simpler.

Hidden Meanings

In life, things aren't as simple as what we can see from the surface. In this blog, I had mentioned this a few times because that is what I think about this world. We prefer to see things simple because all of us are lazy or we just hate troubles.

Let's say,
You know a friend who is very tough, most of the time within them they are weak and it is the opposite for those people who we think they are weak.

Is this true? We are all familiar about this sayings. But I have another view. This might be derived from our expectations. It is simple, a friend of you had been tough all the time, it is natural that you will expect him to be tough and when once awhile he he is not up to your expectation and you will start to think that he is weak within him.

Well, people will always believe that they want. This is just another way of viewing things that are happening around us.

What do I believe in life?

I believe that there is another reasons for anything that happened around us. I believe that things aren't that simple.

Punishment

The best punishment to be instilled on a man is neither death nor taking away all his things but to instil guiltiness into him. Let him carry it for the entire life. There is no other way than to make him feel worst than that.

Dedicated

Cuban is the original place for the cocktail Mojito. It was also considered as one of the cocktails that every bartender should know. The citrus, blend in with the minty and sweet taste is not easy to make.

My co-worker, friend, Marlon took around 9 months to perfect the drink. 9 months just to perfect a drink that seem simple to make.

Yesterday I was delighted as both my manager, Martin, and Marlon taught me a lot of things. Learned two cocktails and they are the Sex on the Beach, and Sour. Sex on the Beach might have different variation to it, but I will definitely try them out to see what is the difference.

Shaking was said to played an important part in cocktail making. Shake and roll differ depending on the type of spirit we use. Breaking the ice or having it dilute faster might destroy the taste for some spirits while at the same time will be able to soften the taste for the others.

Making a cocktail need dedication to it.

"If you want to be a bartender that make drinks for everyone then follow by the book. But if you are going to make it special then you will have to use replace the ingredients in the book with high quality ingredients."
- Martin

I agree with this saying. Marlon also told me something that caught my attention, while shaking the cocktail, we have to put a bit of heart into it. It is amazing to discover the art of making as well as enjoy these drinks.

While drinking sour, we have to drink with the foam together. The foam actually make the drink smoother.

摘星之旅

Life is too complicated. Leading a life by yourself is much more simple.

The title above is the title for a TVB drama. Another awesome series I would say. Portrait the life of different people living in the same world.

It might be the same old thing,
Good VS Evil
Love VS Hatred
Lovers VS Friends
Family, Friends, and etc....

My mum might be right about leading a simple life. If I am to lead a simple life, I will open a cosy bar with BBQ facilities at a beach. Everyday enjoy the sun rise and sun set looking at people playing happily right beside the beach.

If I am to do that, I will be sorry to my family who had hope that we would achieve something more in life.

Life is full of dilemma, I told my mum that I wanted to climb higher and reach out to somewhere higher and yet she say she hope that we would lead a normal and simple life.

Argh..

Someone please direct me to what I want. I am lack of motivation now. Emotional. Weird.

Hmm. I can't hope for that. I am Sam and I will know what I want. Right now I just want to go to a place and look at the stars. Maybe with a friend and a few cans of beer. It will be awesome. I just want to lie down there and have a good sleep under the starry night. Enjoy the night breeze and be rewarded with a few sweet dreams.

Night people. and sweet dreams.

Malaysian~~

A person that everyone should look upon to. A strong and dedicated person who fight for what he believes. This is life should be. We should fight for our dream regardless of what others think about us.

This guy is LEGENDARY. AWESOME!!

Malaysia is where I come from but I do not have the spirit to fix that country. This guy has the guts and courage to do it. He had all my support. What I can only do I fleet to another country to start another life hoping that it will bring a better future for my family. He stay and fight for our country.

I am not that awesome. I know I am selfish.

You said it...

You said it. What you had said really got into me. That is very scary. I thought those aren't the reasons for me to be that emotional. But it might have played a part in it.

You said that I am responsible, I always know what to do, a perfectionist, and so on. You said that you like being with me. You said that you feel that you understand me and yet I seem different in other ways.

You ask me why I can't accept you. Is it because I have someone else in my mind? I took a few minutes to think about that and there is no one in my mind. Is it because I just don't like you? Might be, you might not have been my type of girls.

The facts that you said you seem to be able to understand me kinda attracted me for a moment but not for long.

I was thinking about the above subject in the morning while I was in my friend's car heading to city for my air ticket. I was half asleep in the car.

A whole new DAY!!

Waiting for the ride to the city to collect my air ticket to CHINA!

It will definitely be a whole new experience for me to "work" at a foreign place. Australia is no longer foreign for me.

9 hours of sleep really going to make my day today. AWESOME!

The Train Ride

As usual, the same train ride from Melbourne Central to Clayton railway station. The ride will take around 35 minutes and tonight ride seem different from before. I always take the train whenever I visit the city, lately I took the ride more often as I am working in the city.

Tonight, the train ride seem different. It seems longer than usual. However, the time in my watch state that it took about the same amount of time. Time seem slower tonight in the train. I took the 10.30pm train from Melbourne central. Sat in a corner in one of the carriages of the train. The train was packed with people. At that moment. the scene seems familiar. The scene seem to be taken out from some movie where the main character sat down quietly in a corner with a lot of people in the train talking to each other. However, the whole atmosphere was dead quiet for him as the voices did not reach his ears at that moment. This time I was the main character.

With a heavy feeling, I gazed through the window into the dark night. In life, you may get a lot of friends but quality friends only come in a very small number. Tonight I had reached a breaking point. Usually I am able to hold the feelings but tonight emotion got me. It seems that I had similar situations in the past before. Everything just kept flashing in my mind and I couldn't take it any more and needed somewhere to throw them in.

From the flashes, these feelings that I had before was back in 2007 after I sent my best friend off to England to study at KLIA. The drive home in the car is indeed a long drive. The second time will be when I left Australia for the first time for my studies. This time will be when, my Taiwan friend leaving Melbourne. Seem like it will be take a long time for me to meet up with them again.

This is life. An ending to an event marks a beginning of something new. Even the longest felt railway will reach its destination.

No one like losing things. Especially when it comes to be separated with people you cherish. One of the moment that I hate the most but yet life goes on.

Emotion can really be hard to hold back. How come I can;t hold back this time? Too tired? I thought it is because the date is 19th September. Well, after the clock strike 12 and the date changed to 20th September, I realised that it is not because of the date.

Is it because about what happened few days ago that had even become the reason that I can;t sleep for the whole night? Nah, I can handle those stuff easily. I even had forgotten about them.

I am tired now. Tomorrow, I will still have to go to the city again to get my air ticket to China. China tour and intern. I will miss my friends. They had been awesome. In life, I have gotta admit, it is not easy to meet awesome people that you really like to spend time with. Today my friend said something that made me realize, "It doesn't matter where you travel to and what you had done, it is about who you have been with and those memories count.".

Really?

It is amazing. I am amazed with the things you had said about me. They might be right and might be wrong. For me myself don't really know the true answer about me. I am still on the way on discovering the true me.

This is me. A perfectionist that will always try to seek for a way to be better than the others and learn from the best.

For what you had said about me made me sleepless for the whole night. Maybe I am going through sleepless night again as the weather began to change warmer. My adrenalin is all pumped up again for more action.

Sleeping is a waste of time. Just now, getting a two shot of latte with no sugar from Emily really make my night. Imagine being sleepless for more than 36 hours? I would say awesome.

Later on I will try on the sleep cycle. It was said that a sleep cycle take about 110 minutes. Hope that it is true. It will then be useful for me to maximise my life in the future.

Lost Something?

Right now, what kind of person am I?

If I lost something on my way, I will not waste my time looking for it. Keep moving forward and let things be.

Right now, I am that person.

Barney and Ted

For those who had watched the series, "How I met Your Mother" would have known about these two characters. Two best friends with different lifestyle.

Lately I had found out that it is easy for me to lead Barney way of life instead of Ted. It is easier to lead a life with no responsibilities. But can we do that?

Woke Up.

Now I finally woke up at 6am. I managed to wake myself up from the lazy and slack lifestyle. Went to gym and then got myself a cup of Green Tea Latte.

Right now I am at the computer lab going to do my work. I will finish up my part for the Bridge Analysis report.

Seem AWESOME!!. Well, I did not sleep for the whole night and now I am surprised that I still feel awake.

Fragile Love

"Love is fragile. And we're not always its best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can. And hope this fragile thing survives against all odds." 
- Steve Miller

Stagnant.

Life has been pretty stagnant for me lately. Boring. Boring uni. Boring job.

At least today I had a very good conversation with a friend. It made the day a bit interesting.

Few days ago, I am grateful that you gave me a solution to my problems. Seem like it is true when we are at a different place from home, we will definitely change. I have change. I am not like the person I used to be and I am not the person I hoped to be.

Somehow I don't find that bothering me. I am casual. Maybe too casual.

Being casual is good. You won't get hurt but you will disappoint the people around of you from time to time. But being boring sucks.

Saturday, I will definitely pay Syn Bar a visit. Time to try a whole new different lifestyle.

Continuation...

As I had promised, I have a post that will explained on my choice on the last post. Experience VS Knowledge.

I will take both of them. They are both equal important to me. By having both of them only we will be able to advance forward faster.

Maybe that is the who I am. This is not being greedy. Prefer to be prepare. There is a saying,"Always be prepare and never have the opportunity rather than you are not prepare and have to face the opportunity.".

Knowledge VS Experience

Hm.. Which is better?

I will explained in time to come.....

It is never too late.

Now I realize. There are times, boys can be some real idiots.

One of the biggest mistake I had made in my life. However, there is no time for regrets but to look forward and never to repeat the same mistake again.

Sorry is not the word a person would want to listen. The action that counts. It might have been too late for what happened but it is never too late for what is going to happen.

Trial?

My trial as a bartender will begin on Wednesday. The manager ask me to fill up the form and now I realised that I had lost my TFN.

Seem like I will have to call up the Australia Government and get one tomorrow.

Our purpose?

Coming down to the Earth with a purpose? An arranged purpose or we will have to search and define our own?

What is your purpose? Do you even know?

There are times I like to argue with my mum. There are a lot of times she won't agree with the things I planned but yet she still trust that I can manage my own life well. That what being parents are all about. Love each other. Form a family of two. Give birth and form bigger family. Later on, nurture the kids and educate them and watch them grow.

Today my mum has been very funny in the internet. She would always hope that I would lead a normal life. A life with a sustainable income, form a small family and lead a normal life. Being me, I would like to defy that law about leading a normal life.

I don;t mind forming a family but I just want to explore the world. Search for my own purpose. There are a lot of people in this world that had done great things and taken the paths less taken by other people. I admire the courage shown by those people who are willing to sacrifice for their goals and dreams. It takes a lot of discipline to be able to do so.

Few weeks ago, I met this engineer who had sacrifice his life to build bridges for the third world country. My mum argued that those third world country would have engineers and why not they do it and there are a lot of engineers outside and they can take turns to volunteer to help those countries. If only life is that simple.

In third world country, how many engineers in the country? Even if they do have, do they have enough manpower and skills? With the exponential growth in the populations, everywhere seem to be lacking of engineers. Even if so, how many people across the world would volunteer their time to travel to the third world country to build those bridges. In some country, waiting for the projects to be approved would take months and how many engineers would be willing to sacrifice that period of time?

If he is not doing it then who will help those people? Is he leading a normal life?

A normal engineers would have an office, an assistant, and a decent shelter. He does't have all those stuffs. With a laptop and his calculations, he will have to come out with ways to obtained the materials, technologies, and the manpower to build a bridge. Those bridges might seem simple but it connects those people from rural area into civilisations.

When you arrived at country like Cambodia, you will understand how rural their rural places can be. I will definitely pay those places a visit and see how things work out for them. You can hear from the others bout how bad those places can be but you will never truly understand them unless you experienced them for yourself.

Don't give people the crap that you pity them because they do not have enough food, have the facilities like you do, and then give people the bullshit on how you have donated these and that for them. What they need would be sustainable actions. Clothings and food that you have donated would only last them for awhile, but if you help the community to grow and they themselves would be able to make a living out of it in future.

"Don't give a man fish but instead give him a fishing rod and teach him to fish".

Just now, I didn't know how the conversation had ended in a way that I told my mum that, if you want a daughter in-law and grandchildren then ask Kelvin to get them for you. It can be his duty.

Pushing all the duty to my bro. I wouldn't be intentionally to go and look for all these things and won't mind having them. It is just that I won't promise anything as I have something else in mind right now.

I will..

Today I will finish up the road assignment and definitely the geo-engineering part 1. Have been slacking. Wondering why.

Friday morning, I had just printed the appendix out for my workings. I will have to do them before 11am and then head to uni and deal with the road assignment. NICE! It is really awesome.

Decide

'God determines who walks into your life.It is up to you to decide who you let to walk away,who you let to stay, and who you refuse to let go.

Caipiroska

Today cocktail is Caipiroska. Now following the recipe from what I have learned from Vic Bar School and I like it very much. This is the fun part about cocktail making. There are no boundaries to what you can produce. There are so many ingredients and you can mix and modify accordingly.

Just like my life. There is no boundaries to it.

I still remember the other day interview. One of the question was, "how far do you want to go in your career?". I don't limit myself to how far I can go. Obviously that is my answer. In life, there are times it is easier to be honest with strangers.

The taste of the Caipiroska. Sour, bitter, stingy, and smooth. Just like our life. A mixture of different taste.

Lately, I don't know how to describe my life. I find that lately, I have understand myself better. I may have not become the person I wanted to be when I was younger but at least I am following a path that I am believing in right now. When I was a kid, it is easier to think that life is simple. Study hard and get a job that I dreamt off and then find a nice and pretty lady and marry and form a family. However, life get much more interesting and you will want to discover more. You changed your job preference. You add more goals into your life and keep chasing on. You found a lot of nice girls and things do not work out. You want this and that, and in the end you will have to learn to balance things up.

Right now, I just want a job on bartending so that I can improve my skills on my new found interest. Have to start studying soon for the final. Have to backup for the assignments. Have been slacking.

JUJU ~ Hello Again

In case if you don't understand. The lyrics is as below.
The season that we always waited for
Passed by without saying anything
It rains incessantly on this street
Wrapping up a few regrets and faults

Time passes as I swore not to cry
I became alone without noticing my aching heart

"In [my] memory We can live together forever"
Even now your voice echoes in my heart That is the shadow of a wandering love
Did you cry a little? At that time I could not see

The reason I am living is not to know how far my limits are

However If I open a new door and go out to the sea
I can feel "the end" perfectly beyond the waves

I extend this hand and advance to the sky and catch the wind
Let's go on living
It will come around somewhere again
A place that has existed since the distant past
Only at night does the season change

Before long The rain had stopped

"In [my] memory We can live together forever"
Even now your voice echoes in my heart That is the shadow of a wandering love
Did you cry a little? At that time I could not see

By 茅原実里

望むことは何？私が問いかける
何もいらない嘘ではなかった
消える世界にも私の場所がある
それも知らない自分でさえも

閉じこめた意識は時を結び
願いを繰り返すまた会うまで
忘れないで


眠る日々の中私に残るのは
記憶それとも忘却だろうか
やがて世界には眠りが訪れて
一人一人の明日に変える

選ばれた未来を見送るのにな
願いが叶っても忘れないで
忘れないで


消える世界にも私の場所がある
それも知らない自分でさえも
思い出すまでは

6th Anniversary

18th August was G-stringZ 6th year Anniversary. I miss those days. When it comes to G-stringZ, it would be the 5 awesome people who got together for basketball.

Friendships. They are the best things in life. Cherish it. I am.

張敬軒 - 聽說愛情回來過

The Sweet Dream Will Never Do...

This line rings in my ear after I watch the movie Armageddon. Just back from another awesome trip. More experience gained. More fun achieved and the tiredness is worth it.

Life...

Gain and Loss
Success and Fail
Sweet and Bitter
Love and Hatred

A constant battle between these things. I hate to fail. I hate loss. Hate, is the opposite of love. Simple, I love gain and success.

Who doesn't? However, a loss always reward you with a different gain. Failing now means you will learn to success in the future. Life isn;t that bad.

Sweet and bitter. They should always come together. Life is a mixture of these two. Why do I love cocktails? Cocktails are most of the time a mixture of bitter and sweet. Sweetness from the syrup or juice, while bitterness from the spirits or liqueur.

Some say that to be strong is to hold on while some say that to be strong is to be able to let go. To me, I prefer to box them up. Memories can be both sweet and bitter but they should both be cherished together. This is my decision. I had prefer not to forget or let go. I had realised that these two things can't be separated.

寂寞!?

有些人，是你在寂寞的时候才想起。。。有些人，是你想起的时候，觉得寂寞。。。

Who am I?

22 years of journey and I have not discover who am I.

So who am I?

Name Sam given by my parents. Full name would be Chin Sam Cheong. Given English name is Robert. Online game name would be Ryoushi. Malaysian. Born in 1988. Height 176cm. Weight 72 kg.

Made in... Have you guys ever wonder where were you guys made?

Looking at this, I would think I was made in France.

Even though I might be made in France but I was being finished in Malaysia. All there things about me. They don't describe who am I. Do they?

As a son, am I filial? I don't think so. Not planning to go back on the coming Summer. Spend money. Fool around. Sleep a lot.

In my family, being the eldest. I am not as bright as my brother and not as good in sport as my sister.

Among friends, I am not good looking like Kah Ho, Smart like Dian, music talented like Kean Soon, and not a good talker like Lionel.

Age at 22, there are a lot of entrepreneurs outside are making millions now.

Hurt more people than I help the others.

So who am I? What is it that I am good at? Where do I belong or where do I want to be?

I am still wondering.

In life there are time you will wonder. Just wonder some random stuffs.

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing.

There are things in life that you hope that you wouldn't miss. Some part that you hope that you can be every part of it and yet it is not reachable. It is only a dream.

You hope that you wouldn't miss a thing and miss it very much.

Please enjoy the beautiful song sang by Yuna Ito, I don;t want to miss a thing. Original song by Aerosminth.



I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile, I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you, right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
Yeah, I don't wanna miss a thing

Healthy Life?

OMG.. What am I doing now? I should be sleeping early as I had said. Holy SHIT!!

This is rubbish. Yet, there are a few things that I want to share here....



I just love this song. Nothing much to say.

Morning Coldness

Start my morning with a song from Laura, titled "Use Somebody". Enjoy..

This morning, the blanket seems more comfortable than it normally does. Lying underneath it, and reached out for my mobile phone. The time struck 6.30am. I should wake up and go to uni. However, the comfort provided by the blanket refrained me from doing so.

Lately, a few things came into my mind. Everything seems smooth. It will be.

Little Stars

She is still awesome after all these years..

Lunch and Dinner

"Sam, where for dinner?"

"Glen Waverly.."

"I thought we just went there for lunch."

"I still want the Roast Chicken Rice."

"......."

In reality, is to see the chick working at the restaurant.....

Its SATURDAY!!

Nothing beat the sunny bright day and still I have to go to uni to finish up my assignment. AWESOME!

Betrayal

There are two profession in this world that can't betray their customers.

The first are those who practise medicine and the second are BARTENDERS. They both can serve either medicine or poison to the customers.

The End of a Class

Awesome class? Awesome lesson? YES!!

Fruit Daiquiri.... 30 ml White Rum, 30 ml fruit liqueur, 10 ml Sugar Syrup......

Learn to wait and serve...... One group in the bar and another group outside the bar waiting...

Pina Colada.. Sad that the pineapple wasn't that good. This drink is highly recommended when you are having holiday at the beach.

Tom Collins. This is a good start before any drinks.

Garnishes. All busy garnish their own glass. It is confusing. Just too confusing on which tool to use.

Layer. I did a layer? YES. Had always wanted to try layering the spirits and liqueur. Taste great. Coffee and liqueur. The Galliano Hot Shot. 15ml galliano, 15ml hot coffee and 15 ml cream.

My group's garnish.

Simple and could have done it better? At least the heart made of the orange skin is creative.

This is the best I think. I wonder how should I pour my cocktail in?

The garnishes.

Flatliner.. Who want to challenge this drink? We will have a go at it this Saturday.

Just being busy.

Bartender?

Finally I passed my theory and practical. Am I a bartender now?

I am indeed a bartender now. Right now, I have to look for a job to broaden my experience in that field. It is awesome. I am the top scorer for the theory and yet I am only second in the practical. I really have to admit, the drinks they made seem nicer than me. My speed is the only things that counts. Well, aesthetic also counts. Seem like I still have lots to learn.

Tomorrow will be the final lesson for us. We will have to demonstrate the things Simon had taught us for the past two weeks tomorrow. After tomorrow class, then I am a fully fledge bartender.

It is awesome to know that bartender can work anywhere in the world. My classmates plan to work in Italy. There is another one planning to work in UK. Where will this skills of mine bring me to?

I wonder.

Mixing drinks for people is awesome. It possible invent your own drinks? That will be LEGENDARY!!

It is always exciting once you have acquired new skills. Something you like, your interest, you will always hope that it can lead to where you want to be.

Coping Up.

"Is Simon an ASS?" That was the question being suggested in class for Simon to post in the Victoria Bar School. Simon, our crazy and yet entertaining bartender class lecturer.

My timetable had been very packed. I had homework to hand in on Monday and Tuesday. Tests on Tuesday and Wednesday. Assignments due next week and a presentation next week. AWESOME life I would say I am having right now.

"Am I in a dream now or I am in reality?" Random thoughts after watching Inception.

Lately, I am sorry to friends who I had chatted halfway trough and then fell asleep. I am getting old and a day of filled with events, studies, and activities is just simply tiring.

Coping up with my life right now. I am going to filled each slot with something and ahieve the best out of it.

Secret by One Republic.

All my secret away... All my secret away... ~Catch chorus..

It has been a long time since I update my blog.. Had been busy. Real awesome learning.

Ocean Waves

"If I see her again then I will know what is my feeling toward her." -What I got from the film.

The process? Enjoy it..

Yesterday I was sorting out the companies that I was going to apply for my intern when I came across this superb company which offer snowboarding instructor intern-ship. I was thrilled as they covered everything include training and exams. The down fall is 6000+ USD. Well, at least they guaranteed a job for us. After some calculation I would say I need at least 10k AUD for it. It is just awesome.

This morning I had set my goal. I will only spend my money on snowboarding as well as scuba diving in future. I will definitely spend a lot of money if I am to try all sort of different things. Seem like I will have to finish with my bartender school and get a job after that. Sound awesome.

Well, I still can do the intern after I finish my fourth year next year. Then I will be able to stay at Canada for awhile and earn money from teaching as an instructor. This summer, I will be doing the intern which is related to my field.

Yesterday my cousin told me something, "There are time when we had forgot about the process because we are rushing towards the ending. Why not we slow down and enjoy the process?". That is true. I will take things step by step. I just can't be too greedy, ain't I?

That is my GOAL!

Definition

It is easier when we are studying about the law, physics, science, commerce, and etc as they all have the same definition and we are to understand and learn the same thing. The same thing till someone come along and change or make new discovery, it is simple as we will just shift to the new course together.

When it comes to life and there will be no real definition about it. Happiness? Sadness? Hatred? Love?

What is the real definition? Definition that you googled for?

For instance satisfaction. There is a definition to what kind of feelings is that but where is the real definition of achieving that?
We all have different goals and needs. What will satisfy us? Only we ourself know..

"A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery while on a detour."

I find that true but it might not be for the others.

Few days ago, I was again fascinated. A guest lecture came over and told us about his experience. His experience with building more than 500 bridges in the third world country and yet all without salary. Volunteered to do all that, pouring his knowledge to help the others and working without an office. Just a laptop to help with his calculations and the plans to build the bridges. In my opinion he is great. Missing out a lot of things and yet he just go with what he think is right. Right for the world.

The reasons?

I believe that I have a story that was not told. The night on the 16th of July. A night full of drinking, commotions on the street, madness, and crazy.

Till now, my friend and I are still arguing on the fact on why those girls make money that way. Isn't because they really have a sick mother at home, and siblings to feed or they just wanted branded stuffs.

What happened that night was all a coincidence which brought us to the night of excitement, and a whole new experience for us.

The story begin with us taking the taxi to the Airport on the day before. I booked a yellow cab but instead I was given a VIP business class cab and was charged at normal rate. It seem to be an awesome start for out trip to Adelaide. In the cab, as usual the friendly driver will start telling us about all sort of stories including his recommendation of a particular place in Adelaide. The 'Crazy Horse'. Obviously George and me was puzzled about what kind of place that was but deep down we manage to figure it out a little.

Adelaide, a small city. On that day itself, we walked around and practically know the way around easily and that is when George found that place. 'CRAZY HORSE'.

From the picture, it is obvious.

We found that place, and my friend is reluctant to go in. Well, for me, I was just curious on how the place might be it. In the end we still gave that place a visit. After my friend found out about his result and he is up to it. Good results he had gotten.

That night, we drink in bar, went to the stripper club 'Crazy Horse', and went clubbing. A tiring night but yes, it was awesome. Who would have thought that I will actually end up in a stripper club. Seem like, Sam is growing up.

And besides, I am horny but not desperate. Just a normal curious boy.

Adelaide had been fun. Peaceful, quiet, greener than Melbourne, and the people there are friendlier. The beaches are nearby to the city, 10 minutes drive to the airport from the city centre, the vineyards are nearby, just 2 hours drive to Penfold "Best vineyard in Australia, and everything is near. The only setback would be the shops closed really early even for Coles. Coles closes at 5pm everyday.

The Chinatown. The Chinatown here is different. It is smaller than what we had in Melbourne but they have different style over here. They have food court like those back in Malaysia.

The sand. White sandy beach is one of the best place to loosen up a bit.

Beach... My favourite.

ARGH!! AWESOME!!

Relaxing.

Chandelier Bar. Inside of the Skycity Casino. Drink of the night ~ Whisky on Rock.

Penfolds. I would really like to taste your Grange. Someday I will get my hand on your Icon wine. wAtch out.

Lamb Shacks for lunch at Barossa Valley. Barossa Valley, the place where some of the interesting vineyards where found there. A good place to drive around and taste wine. It is better to drive from Melbourne to Adelaide. 

Chateau Tanunda. The place here I found an awesome dessert wine. ~The Chateau. 

The Chateau. Enjoying a glass of it and the view by the Chateau Tanunda. 

Rum with Mango. A kick better heading off to the stripper club.

Wallaby. They are just cute.

The devil. ~Tasmania Devil.

Dingo. They seem fine to be a pet dog. Sad that they can't be domestic.

Random shot. I find it nice.

The tower at the top of the Adelaide Hill. The highest place in Adelaide Hill.

Random shot. Labrador in the car. They seem to be enjoying the Adelaide city tour in the car.

Random shot. I like this picture. Saw it in one of the shop.

Last day in Adelaide. Stranded in the airport for 7 hours and there I lied down enjoying the view.