Officially USELESS!

Seriously, I now announced that I am officially useless.

WOKE up. Slept again. Cousin comment," You have been lying there for the past 24 hours.".

Yesterday, for a sudden I felt so free. Right after the paper, when I walk out of the exam hall, it was raining. Gust of wind blowing and I was shivering. The feeling of freedom and the coldness lingers around me.

There is nothing more than I can ask for.

I can't believe that, I was stuck there 2 days ago. Filled with books and stuff.

Notes, calculators, pencils, and they are all now rubbish.

Fucking lame.. You can't can't blame me. I wasn't leading an awesome life during an exam period. I will just have to come out with random stupid things with whatever materials that was with me.

The notes once my life saviour now is rubbish which I chuck in somewhere. Cupboard? Or dustbin?

Lately, the weather suit my likings. Drizzling whole day long. Cold and chilling.

Right after exam, shopping spree. Well, guys shouldn't be shopping. We should instead do something more exciting than this. Well, it is also time for us to stock up. The picture below isn't place for me to stock up. I was just following my friends.

Yet, I just could not understand why people willing to line up to purchase LV's products. Expensive and I just don;t understand. Look at the girl on the top picture, she just can't wait to get her hand on some of the stuff in there.

HOLY CRAP... He is only 3 or 4 years old and now he is suckling because he can't get any LV? What is wrong with the new generation? Branded goods are just pricy and they are for idiots.

In the end I am one of the idiots. My product will arrived soon. I can't believe that I got a LV with my name on. =.= Thanks Kean Soon. So much for your, "BUY lah". This time I shall see what is so good about over rated products like LV is.

By the way, spending your money on branded stuff is stupid. But spending your money on food is what I call brilliant. Mud crab noodle. HOLY CRAP! My favourite dish here. The mud crab here are way bigger than those in Malaysia. Seriously. It is worth the price and they are just delicious.

Rain reminds me of this,

"I love rain. Staring at the window where the rain is falling feels like they are washing away my sadness and loneliness."

- Heard this from my friend long ago. It just suddenly popped back up in my brain. That time, somehow, I can feel what she is feeling as well.

Yesterday a friend told me that he might just had broken up. No comment. As bro, my advice would be, "Hope you know what you are doing."

Wasted a Day!!

Did I just wasted a day? I slept for the whole day. Since morning 3 am till 8pm. 17 hours? AWESOME!

Tomorrow, I will have loads to do. Getting ready to go New South Wales, buy some stuffs, prepare for another busy semester next sem, and kick ass.

Yesterday, I had a chat with a friend and realized. I still have a long way to go in discovering me. People who like to be random.

Holiday after exam is just too AWESOME!!

England Defeat

Great match yesterday. Germany beat England,4-1. It was a big disappointment. Nothing can be said as Germany had played the game well. The referee's mistake can't seem to be the reason to England's defeat. Depressed? I am really depressed even though I will be supporting Germany from now on but, it will great to be able to see England perform in the world's greatest game.

Last night, after the game I just gone home and sleep. Heavy heartedly, I closed my eyes and will have to wait for the next season which is on year 2014.

The nervousness that I had yesterday had totally surpassed the level of nervousness I had while sitting for my finals after Germany scored 2 goals in the first half.

Today, I had joined in the emo gang. Low5 people.

This morning, a friend even SMS me asking how am I. Wow.. I can even guess that, a lot of people would have changed their MSN nicknames or update their Facebook on that game. Half would had been disappointed about the game. Other half would have been cheering in joy with Germany's victory.

I shall skip all that and focus on my last paper. Another 4 years. I shall wait.

'In life, time will give us the answer we want, all we need is some patience.'

Bye bye... Italy got send off...

Awesome. Italy wasn't qualified for the best 16 group matches. I coiled be more happy today.

Today seem like it is my day. Early corning woke up, seeing the news on England and Germany qualified for the KO matches. Did my exam smoothly. My friend got me the thing I want. Pretty girl invite me for a holiday at her place. And Italy got sent home. That is what they deserved for causing Zidane the red card on last World Cup season.

And yet later I will have to continue my study for the last paper. Next match, Denmark should win or I will be losing 20 bucks to my Japanese friend. I want to see his disappointing face when the team he support lost the game. It will be awesome.

Great DAY!!

Great day today with both team advancing to the KO matches. Congrats on both the teams, England and Germany. It was sad that France was sent home during the qualifying match but somehow it proves that Zidane had been one of the best in France team.

No much to talk about today. I am all burning with fire to complete my third paper today. Just that, I agreed with Zidane's quote. I would put it as quote of the year.

"There are some things I'm not proud of but I've accepted what't happened to me and just go on with it."
- Zinedine Zidane, France Legend.

These Few Days

These few days, I watched a few clip on Youtube,

Part 1


Part 2


I have got a few new favourite songs,



Games I played in the library,

Plants VS Zombies, Today finally I was able to clear level 18 for the survivor game.

Ipad. My companion.

Games I played at home,

Try to figure what game is that.

Done with some random update, and now I shall go back to my studies.

Which? I like?

KFC? or Macca's?
Pepsi? or Coke?
Mercedes? or BMW?
Ferrari? or Lamborghini?

Giving the above choices, it is easy for me to choose. Macca's, Coke, BMW, and Lamborghini.

If only life is that easy to choose like the above choices.

Sem 1, 2nd paper, 3rd Year....

Enjoy people. My habit, listen to songs before any paper.

Try my best?

How is it consider trying my best? I had been reading these notes on my structure design and right now I am really bored of it.

It is not that I will definitely get a HD for this subject, then why I am feeling this way? I should be studying. Maybe till the extend where I can remember all the notes words by words and then pour them back into that piece of exam paper tomorrow. Then I will definitely get a HD for my paper.

So far, I had read through those that are important. Make notes out of them. Should be pretty well prepared. Might not get a HD but at least a D?

Lately, I cam across this blog. Interesting blog titled, "Stuff No One Tell Me.". In life, there are a lot of things that we can learn from it. Well, most of the time, your parents don't tell them, your teacher don't teach them, your grandparents won't tell you about it, and my lecture notes won't even tell me how to be a useful person. It has a bunch of craps on buildings design, project management, earth structure and etc.

Most of the things that we learned are the things that we observed.

One very good example would be:

We learn how to have sex from observing the porn starts from porns. Your parents, teachers, and relatives won't teach you about this. It isn't like they do not have experience, but they just won't teach you.

One of my favourites:

Currently, not in the mood for World Cup. It is obvious.

Right now, I am again motivated to continue my study. I can't wait for the upcoming events. WOHOO!! Awesome!

One Act of Random Kindness

To change the world for a better place is simple. "One Act of Random Kindness At a Time".

Disappointing Games

This year world cup games are disappointing. France can't even make it out from the group match. England is facing a slim chance of making it out either. Germany lost a match in the group matches for the first time since year 1986. Spain, the Europe champion lost to an unknown team. Brazil is still an unknown for the time being.

Much to study again later. Two subjects to revise for today. Revising at home will be a good choice for today.

Seem like, I am indeed getting older. I thought a two hour nap would be enough for me to catch the England match this morning but in the end I fell asleep till morning. Woke up early in the morning, finding that the match was a draw, 0 - 0.

Yesterday, was a tiring day I guess. Study from 9am till 6pm in the uni library. At night, catch up with the Germany's match and later on came home and slept till morning. Luckily I didn't catch a cold. Slept with my wet pants due to the rain, and shirtless. Screwed up life during an exam period.

For uni students, it is common for us to face the "Trilemma". The trade-off between, good grades, sleep, and social life. Right now I am in critical situation of balancing the threes choices. Well, these things won't change. In future, I will have to make decision in balancing my career, social, and sleep as well.

In engineering, I learn about the trade-off between Quality, Cost, Time, and Scope. In life I learn about the trade-off between Success, Sleep, and Social.

Fighto!!

Fighto! Fighto!

Time to fight for another paper again. The match between Spain and Switzerland was awesome. Both team played quite well. It was surprising that Spain lost to Switzerland. 1 on 0. Spain had a lot of chances to score a goal but luck wasn't on their side this time. They had 27 shots on goal but none went in while Switzerland only had 7 shots on goal and 1 went in.

There are times, we need a bit of luck to succeed as well. No mater how good or how hard we work for something, we do need luck.

The sudden excitement to keep studying is with me now. YEA!!

First Paper

Few hours ago, my feeling is same with Ronaldinho waiting for his first match in the World Cup tournament. Right now, my feeling is the same with Rooney waiting for his second match. Eager to beat the second match to be qualified in the 16 best team matches. I am eager to do well in my next paper as well.

Lesson for the month, "Even if you lie to someone, remember to follow up with it.".

Good lesson to be learnt. Last week, my group got back the structure assignment and I was the one to collect it from the office. With the devil beside my ears whispering to me, I had decided to play a prank on my team mates.

"Yo, our marks. 64/100 for the structure."

Simple, short messages work most of the time. Can show that we are depressed as well and nothing more to comment on the situation.

First reply, "Shit! Where did we lose marks a lot?"

Second reply, "Wow.. That's not exactly worth the work.."

Third reply, "O? U collected?"

I like the third reply. Calm despite the result we had gotten. Well, anyway, all three of them in the end was disappointed after confirming the reasons why we got such a low marks.

At first, I planned to show them the marks at night however things didn't happen as I had planned.

That night, "Sam, my I-pad is here in stock. Apple just contacted me.". And I off I go with my friend, heading towards Chaddy for my friends new I-pad. And later on, went to his house to watch the opening ceremony for the World Cup.

Next day, busy studying as I had wasted time on World Cup. I forgot about it.

Third day early in the morning saw my house mate, and he asked for the assignment. I was smiling and handed him the assignment. POOF! A HD! Got him. Later on, in the computer lab, another team mate just found out and he stared at me. He is the one that had taken this incident very hard. Heard that he was depressed the other night. Well, later on he told me something that I will always remember in my heart, "Always remember to follow up after you lied.".

No worry Shim, I will. HAHA. He was indeed funny when he was depressed. Should have taken a picture of it and posted it up here.

Fired UP (Germany VS Australia)

Since I am here, I think I should be rooting for Australia. Sorry, Germany and French have always been my second choice to root of after England.

This morning, I woke up early in the morning, 4am just to watch the game. I am glad that I woke up for that match. Amazing game played by the Germany. Awesome teamwork performed by the players in both offence and defence.

Scored two goals in the first half of the match was enough to make Germany's supporter to celebrate the victory. Who would have thought that on the second half of the match, the Australia would get a red card and they are down to 10 players in the game. This gave the Germany the opportunity to score another two goals.

4 amazing goals. Awesome match. I am now fired up for my exam as well.

Tomorrow, everyone shall see how I score in the Groundwater paper as well.

Germany's Miroslav Klose celebrates his team's second goal.

Random.. SNSD

Everyone would know what SNSD is. The famous Korean group of pretty lady who are also good in dancing as well as singing.

Just reach home and I randomly played a quiz.

Came out that, my favourite girl in the group would be:
Taeyeon

The reason from the quiz:
Your ideal match is none other than SNSD's kid leader Taeyeon. You really dig her open personality and of course her outrageously amazing vocal skills. If anything she's one of those "one of the guys" type of girls that you can just instantly become friends with. She really likes perfume so that's the way to get into her heart! She sometimes may want her space, but as her other half, you should know when to give it to her. She's very independent so you need not worry about her constantly. Plus what's not to love about her beautiful bare .... forehead! She'll make sure to make you laugh.



Wow. Seem pretty hot for a girlfriend eh. Beside the fact that she is pretty, I will really be interested if she can make me laugh.

Night people. Still disappointed about the match.

England First Match

Beckham will definitely be disappointed with England's performance this year. Watching how the goalkeeper let the ball in. If that hasn't happen then they would have got the match won easily.

Rooney seem to be in his own world during the game. Wasn't really playing hard. Gerrard was doing well. Lampard was was just average. What the hell is happening? The match wasn't as I had expected.

Beckham: What the fuck are you guys playing? You call this a game?

If me, I would have said the same thing. It will be awesome if Beckham and Owen is in the game. The game had ended. Going home to have a rest now.

England VS USA

Gerrard, hero for the first 4 minutes.

Half time just gone. Current result is 1 on 1. The World cup match between England and USA was a mix of joy and disappointment. A goal scored by Gerrard and the blunder made by the England goalkeeper, Green.

Second half is beginning soon and I think a lot of England hope that there will be a change in the result which favour their supporting team.

Come on England. You guys can do better than this. I am here staying awake, supporting you guys and you guys should be at your best.

Being Honest

Most of the time, if we are honest to ourself, we will be able to get what we desired for. This is true. Yesterday, I can;t believe that my friend actually got the HD TV receiver for his television just for the SBS channel to watch World Cup. Well, he did ask me before whether I like to watch and I say yes.

Just before the event start, he got the things needed for the big event and invited some of us over to watch. I am grateful. I am being honest about what I wanted and there it goes. I got the chance to watch one of the greatest event in human life.

Evil grin*, "When you have rich friends, life will just get easier for you."

This morning, French VS Uruguay and the result is 0 on 0. A draw. Both strong team, fair match, and luckily I was sleeping. Not even a single goal scored in that match. I am actually preparing myself for tonight.

Later on 11pm, an AUDI A4 will come pick me up to get some take away from Maccas. And then head on for some discussion on groundwater past year paper and then the match start. AWESOME!! I shall take more more caffeine intake tonight.

What more can I ask for? Nothing at the moment. In life, we don't from others people, we shall only ask from ourself. What can we do for ourself? Right now, I am enjoying the preparation for exams as well as the World Cup matches.

The schedule for oncoming matches, 12am will be Argentine VS Nigeria, and at 4.30am will be England VS USA.

After 6am will be the time for me to take a break and have some caffeine and then get ready to head on to the library on 10am and study till 5pm before I come home and rest. Sleep early for tomorrow and wake up early for the day after. AWESOME time table to accommodate my studies.

World Cup 2010

And yet again. The event that all of us had been waiting for. WORLD CUP 2010.

The only game which unite everyone in this world. Everyone from all over the world.

Even though I am having exam now, I shall conquer both. Score in exam and watch player score in the soccer game. I should sacrifice my health and live my life. Enjoy the things I like and fulfil my responsibility.

WOHOO! The first match. Africa VS Mexico. The result is 1 on 1. Good game I would say even though the opening ceremony wasn't as good as I thought.

Later on, French VS Uruguay. ^^

Study!?!?

Most of the students from department of civil engineers really hope that this semester would be the last tough semester that they are going to encounter for this course. Fighting their ass off, studying hard, and trying to score well.

Me had been camping in the library for a few days. Had maccas for most of the meals, tried to skipped a meal and ended up getting tired easily. A few cool companies while studying and it seem to be progressing well.

Figure 1: A dead friend in the library.

Figure 2: Seem dead.

Figure 3: Library filled with books.

Figure 4: More books. Somehow being surrounded by books seem scarier than being surrounded by zombies.

Figure 5: Faithful companions during exams. Notes, highlighter, and I-pod Nano.

Figure 6: Pretty girls in the Music Video. Just have to look at some pretty girls during break. "Girls' Generation".

Figure 7: Favourite MV. By Soulja.

Figure 8: LV school bag!?!? Rich ASS!! Wondering who the fuck is that.

Figure 9: I-pod seem matching with Sennheiser wireless headphone.

Figure 10: Perfect match.

Figure 11: OI!!! STUDY LAH CCB..

Just a short break in the library playing with my Aino. Nothing much to do during the break. A little game with the gadgets that we had, it seems entertaining as well.

Yesterday, cold.

Today is also cold. Computer lab no longer open 24 hours. Yesterday last computer lab session with Charlotte, George, Die Yu, and some random people. AWESOME. Today, study at home. Maybe I should head to maccas later for ice-cream. Had been craving for that soft served cone.

Lately, I had a fit of laughter every night before heading to bed. Maybe it was due to my craziness for studying too much. No matter how serious I am, randomness always able to break that serious mode of mine. Random friends with random chat.

Finally, that's all for today. Random post, and random informations.

If I get to choose.

Up and Down..

Left and Right..

Good and Evil..

I don't want to go up nor do I want to go down. I just want to stay here. I don't desire going up to the heaven nor I want to go down to hell as well.

Left and right. This is just too troublesome. I just want to go forward.

Being either good or evil alone is fun. I want to be both. Good to the people who are worthy of it and evil to those that will harm me.

Random post for today.

Today: Will have to head to Coles to get some juice and milk and later on get ready to go to the library to study. Study till late again and pray that I will not go crazy at night again. Studying really do stuff our brain up.

Answer

"Found all your answer?"

Haha. It is not easy. I was wondering. and yet, you my friend, had been disturbing me about my studies. I thought I told you I am an engineering student and not a business student. I am still wondering why my lecturer can't just give us all the information. If only project management is easy then I won't be losing hair while studying for it.

Weather: Raining outside.
Current status: Just took out the urban notes.

I am enjoying a cup of coffee and listening to the song titled, "今でもずっと" by Yuna Ito.

Should be studying right now. Grandpa pass away, and bro got into an accident. Everything happen in one day. Luckily everything is all right.

Come to think of it, my mother should be very sad now. Losing her mother a few weeks before the mother's day and now losing her dad just two weeks before father's day. Maybe this incident is trying to tell each of us to appreciate our parents when we still can. Maybe, appreciate everyone around us. Called her up yesterday and she seem fine. We were all prepared for grandpa's death. Not long after grandma's death, grandpa's health had been deteriorating. His heart had been growing weaker by days and it seems that we all knew that his heart will stop soon.

Funny, from the whole event, it might seems that my grandpa is sad because my grandma had passed away. But as far as I can remember I had never seen them get along. Not even once in my life. Maybe both of them love each other deep down but were too stubborn to admit and forgive each other. Did he go because he is sad or because he just didn't want to die before my grandma? Maybe this is their small little competition. We will never know.

Anyway time for me to start studying. Have fun people.

Project Management

"You sure you don't know?"

Lol. Seem like I studied management till I am going blur. Crap. There is so much to study. I need to finish doing the past year and summarise all of them by today. I will have to start my Urban Study tomorrow. Less than a month and the hell will be over.

Back to the first question. My friend find it weird when she found out that I actually asked someone, "let say for a project cost.. should the company overhead be borned with it?".

Haiya. How should I know about that. I am only an engineering student. Well, come to think of it, it is a common sense that it should be included. How can I not know of it. Met that question in one of the past year. I don't remember reading it in the lecture notes or the lecture presentation and off I go browsing through my msn contacts and got help from a friend.

Enough of crap and start studying.

Death

Guess that my family members are now busy preparing for my grandpa funeral. 

RIP Grandpa... Who had just left us few hours ago.

There is nothing much I can do since I am not around. Depress? A little. A lost is still a lost. Nobody like to loss something. 

An end to something means a new beginning to something new. Means, now everyone of us will have a new life to begin with. A life without him by our side. 

Third Year 1st Sem

"Looking at the window, wondering what "freedom" is all about.."

At time like this, there is nothing much I can do beside studying my ass off and trying to score in my final. In front of me, my laptop, my notes, my bowl, two glasses, and some electronic devices. Well, I am waiting for my presentation. It is schedule at 4.20pm later. After I am done with that means I will have to go to the library and study.

I do enjoy Civil Engineering course but I do not enjoy the exam. I prefer doing assignments. Discussion, doing research, reading, and others. Just not exam.

No choice, I will have to accept it. Next year, there will be lesser paper for final. First semester fourth year, only one subject will have final examination. Looking forward to that.

ONE LAST THING!! FUCK YOU EXAM!! Seriously fucking you. You will see......

Dream

Song by AK(陳奕&沈建宏),
《一秒鐘》純愛的旋律、浪漫的呼求，在R&B的輕藍調中最拉扯的青色心弦情調。
A nice song titled "one second".

Last night, I had a dream. A dream about a scene that I will never forget.

"Receiving a sms from you that read, 'Do you know why I like rain too? Because no one will know that I am crying now.'. That time we were both under the rain with our friends. And all I can do is looked at you helplessly."

New Zealand??

Right now, I am staring at the blank power point. The title of the slide had been typed in as "Introduction". I don't know how should I present this. The whole project development had been well planned. I am proud of my team's work. Due to scarce resources, there might still be some informations that aren't perfect but overall, we manage to get the project planned out similar to a commercial projects. Last presentation for this semester. How can I present this in order to attract my clients who are my tutors as well. How?

Still waiting for another project to be typed out before I can finalised it. Seem like, my team mates are tired. They are taking a nap right now. I will have no choice but to stay up tonight and wait for them to finish that. At the mean time, I should get this presentation done.

Few days ago, you guys asked me to join the trip to New Zealand as well. To me it seems to be a last gathering before you guys head back to Taiwan again. I was happy and excited but I will be having class at that time as well. This has been bothering me. Well, a little.

I had posted a post about how difficult is it for our life to meet with people who we can really hang out with. The trip to New Zealand will be with a group of awesome people that I had met with last summer. I will manage somehow. Meet up with you guys in New Zealand and had another awesome time with you guys before you guys head back to Taiwan.

After you guys back to Taiwan, we will all walk on different path again. There will not be any guarantee that our path will cross again but our memories will stay on with us.

Queenstown, New Zealand. I had heard a lot about that place. A must visit place in New Zealand. Maybe this is the best time for me to visit that place. Full of extreme sports, nice environment, beautiful sceneries, peaceful town, good food, and a nice place to drive around. I will manage my second semester. I will indeed find a way to join the trip. Somehow I feel that I will not regret joining that trip.