Tuesday, January 18, 2011

A day rest!

Why should I even care? Pushed myself so hard over something that is not even mine. It is not even my restaurant and why am I working myself myself so hard. Just work normally and get paid.

Why should I take all the misunderstanding and humiliation?

It is me. Just me who want everything to be perfect. IT is a good experience. Let me learn how to deal with different people and situation. Let me see how other people react and how immature and mature some can be. Maybe this is the fun of it.

This world is great because it provides a ever lasting learning opportunity for us. It doesn't matter who we are, where we stand and how much we know and yet there will always be things for us to learn.

Today finally a day break. I will have to study up my cocktails and stock trading. In life, there are times we have to learn to step back and move forward again once we are up for it again.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Global Weather

Technology can really be in handy when you can just find out about anything with a touch nowadays. The phrase connecting the world with a click is no longer valid. Right now is connecting the world with a touch.

It seems like it is raining and cloudy in most of the major cities in the world. How awesome can that be. The word could really use some rain to clean it up a little.

Sitting outside my work place and wonder why a mm can't have everything they desire. I will have to admit. I am one help of a greedy person.

I just want to drink right now. To the tend extend which I don't even know who I am anymore. That moment will be the time I am taking a break. A break from everything. It is sad to know that you can't knocked off by a bottle of whiskey. It would kean that you will have to drink more to get drunk.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Barney's Life

I had posted a pot about the difference lifestyle between two characters from a series. "How I met you mother", has these two figures that are distinctively different from each other. I had said before that it is easy for me to lead Barney's lifestyle compare to Ted's.

Well, I did give it a try after I had finished my bartender's course last year. A life filled with nothing but emptiness. For few months straight, I enjoyed my nights during the weekends in the city. Not in restaurants, friends' house, the cinema, or at the Crown. But in bars, clubs, and strip clubs. Drinks, flirt, and nude dance.

It was stupid. I didn't like it and till now I am wondering why I did that. Just out of curiosity to discover myself?

Well, I did discover myself. I am not suited to that lifestyle.

Achieving The Vision

I had talked about my vision before. How can I make that vision work. Lately I have been thinking and planning a lot of things. Things that I want and how can I achieve them. The vision for my family and friends. Something that is by Sam and for you guys.

Today after work, on the train, I suddenly missed the moments when I wore the Wesleyan uniform running around the high school. Copy school works, played basketball, flirting with girls, and the craps that the usual high school boys would do. Maybe it is the consequences of the dream I had last night where I am with all my friends from the past.

ARGH!! Head messed up with lots of things. Stock studies, civil studies, and bar studies. Interest and future, seem easy to say.

Have I just make my life complicated from wanting to do so many things? Do I really love money and success that much? Or I just love the challenges? I am still wondering.

Maybe a simple life will be good. Saying that, I pictured one of my friend, Su-Lyn. the funny friend who once told me how she want her life to be. Get a husband that really love her, and they give birth to a few kids and lead a loving and simple life.

That is simple.

Hmm.. Can't think myself in that situation.

I can imagine myself working, doing something, and achieving something.

I don't really know. Part of me would want a simple and easy life. Maybe open a bar or two, have a medium size company doing development or consultancy. Earning a substantial income to support my interest such as diving, drinking, and hanging out with friends.

Or keep growing and maybe have the opportunity to handle a few mega projects.

Or move to Canada and open a bar.

I am lost again. Read too much for the past few days and its time for me to slow down again. Always remember the KISS method. Keep it simple, stupid.

I will definitely excel in Civil and also open up a bar where my vision will come true.

Monday, January 3, 2011

3rd of 2011

My very first entry for this year.

Today will be my first day of work this year. How will I go through this year? I am excited and wonder what will I do and what is waiting or me.

Enough of fun for the last two days. Right now, I will have to plan careful to finished up my next few plans. Work smart and hard for my future and interest. This may make my life seem a little simpler and easy to go with. I am sure there will be rough patches along my path again but I will definitely be able to overcome them.

Last year, I did average for my studies. I manage to be a bartender and now in training to run a restaurant business as a manager. To be exact would be a bar manager/floor supervisor. I will now let this chance go to a waste. Had lots of fun with friends. Friends from university to random bag packers. Awesome trips from Tasmania to China.

What would be the down in 2010? The deaths? It is saddening but yet they had reached their time and it was time for them to move on. For us who are still living will have to learn to appreciate what we've got and keep moving on as well.

There is nothing to write about in this blog lately. Nothing much run in my mind except for my works and interests. At least I don't get emotional from listening to mandarin songs again. as time pass we really do grow. It is nice to know that we do not change as time passes but we mature with it. I do not forget the things that I had learnt. The lessons will make me into a better person for the people around me. They help me to understand and care for my family and friends.

My mindset might have been wrong but maybe someday I will learnt to correct it again. I remember telling a random person at a bar about what's is important in my life.

1. Family and Friends
2. Career and Interest
3. Myself

I said that I don't mind what will happen to me but I will have to achieve what I can for what I feel is important. that random person actually gave me an answer which I would expect from everyone else. Take care of yourself first and your health actually should come first.

I am not convince. With this mindset, I can actually go for what I desire for and taking each opportunity I have seriously. Pushing myself forward as if there is no tomorrow.

I think that's it for today. Time to get ready and go for some time out at Borders.