If I get to choose.

Up and Down..

Left and Right..

Good and Evil..

I don't want to go up nor do I want to go down. I just want to stay here. I don't desire going up to the heaven nor I want to go down to hell as well.

Left and right. This is just too troublesome. I just want to go forward.

Being either good or evil alone is fun. I want to be both. Good to the people who are worthy of it and evil to those that will harm me.

Random post for today.

Today: Will have to head to Coles to get some juice and milk and later on get ready to go to the library to study. Study till late again and pray that I will not go crazy at night again. Studying really do stuff our brain up.

Answer

"Found all your answer?"

Haha. It is not easy. I was wondering. and yet, you my friend, had been disturbing me about my studies. I thought I told you I am an engineering student and not a business student. I am still wondering why my lecturer can't just give us all the information. If only project management is easy then I won't be losing hair while studying for it.

Weather: Raining outside.
Current status: Just took out the urban notes.

I am enjoying a cup of coffee and listening to the song titled, "今でもずっと" by Yuna Ito.

Should be studying right now. Grandpa pass away, and bro got into an accident. Everything happen in one day. Luckily everything is all right.

Come to think of it, my mother should be very sad now. Losing her mother a few weeks before the mother's day and now losing her dad just two weeks before father's day. Maybe this incident is trying to tell each of us to appreciate our parents when we still can. Maybe, appreciate everyone around us. Called her up yesterday and she seem fine. We were all prepared for grandpa's death. Not long after grandma's death, grandpa's health had been deteriorating. His heart had been growing weaker by days and it seems that we all knew that his heart will stop soon.

Funny, from the whole event, it might seems that my grandpa is sad because my grandma had passed away. But as far as I can remember I had never seen them get along. Not even once in my life. Maybe both of them love each other deep down but were too stubborn to admit and forgive each other. Did he go because he is sad or because he just didn't want to die before my grandma? Maybe this is their small little competition. We will never know.

Anyway time for me to start studying. Have fun people.

Project Management

"You sure you don't know?"

Lol. Seem like I studied management till I am going blur. Crap. There is so much to study. I need to finish doing the past year and summarise all of them by today. I will have to start my Urban Study tomorrow. Less than a month and the hell will be over.

Back to the first question. My friend find it weird when she found out that I actually asked someone, "let say for a project cost.. should the company overhead be borned with it?".

Haiya. How should I know about that. I am only an engineering student. Well, come to think of it, it is a common sense that it should be included. How can I not know of it. Met that question in one of the past year. I don't remember reading it in the lecture notes or the lecture presentation and off I go browsing through my msn contacts and got help from a friend.

Enough of crap and start studying.

Death

Guess that my family members are now busy preparing for my grandpa funeral. 

RIP Grandpa... Who had just left us few hours ago.

There is nothing much I can do since I am not around. Depress? A little. A lost is still a lost. Nobody like to loss something. 

An end to something means a new beginning to something new. Means, now everyone of us will have a new life to begin with. A life without him by our side. 

Third Year 1st Sem

"Looking at the window, wondering what "freedom" is all about.."

At time like this, there is nothing much I can do beside studying my ass off and trying to score in my final. In front of me, my laptop, my notes, my bowl, two glasses, and some electronic devices. Well, I am waiting for my presentation. It is schedule at 4.20pm later. After I am done with that means I will have to go to the library and study.

I do enjoy Civil Engineering course but I do not enjoy the exam. I prefer doing assignments. Discussion, doing research, reading, and others. Just not exam.

No choice, I will have to accept it. Next year, there will be lesser paper for final. First semester fourth year, only one subject will have final examination. Looking forward to that.

ONE LAST THING!! FUCK YOU EXAM!! Seriously fucking you. You will see......

Dream

Song by AK(陳奕&沈建宏),
《一秒鐘》純愛的旋律、浪漫的呼求，在R&B的輕藍調中最拉扯的青色心弦情調。
A nice song titled "one second".

Last night, I had a dream. A dream about a scene that I will never forget.

"Receiving a sms from you that read, 'Do you know why I like rain too? Because no one will know that I am crying now.'. That time we were both under the rain with our friends. And all I can do is looked at you helplessly."

New Zealand??

Right now, I am staring at the blank power point. The title of the slide had been typed in as "Introduction". I don't know how should I present this. The whole project development had been well planned. I am proud of my team's work. Due to scarce resources, there might still be some informations that aren't perfect but overall, we manage to get the project planned out similar to a commercial projects. Last presentation for this semester. How can I present this in order to attract my clients who are my tutors as well. How?

Still waiting for another project to be typed out before I can finalised it. Seem like, my team mates are tired. They are taking a nap right now. I will have no choice but to stay up tonight and wait for them to finish that. At the mean time, I should get this presentation done.

Few days ago, you guys asked me to join the trip to New Zealand as well. To me it seems to be a last gathering before you guys head back to Taiwan again. I was happy and excited but I will be having class at that time as well. This has been bothering me. Well, a little.

I had posted a post about how difficult is it for our life to meet with people who we can really hang out with. The trip to New Zealand will be with a group of awesome people that I had met with last summer. I will manage somehow. Meet up with you guys in New Zealand and had another awesome time with you guys before you guys head back to Taiwan.

After you guys back to Taiwan, we will all walk on different path again. There will not be any guarantee that our path will cross again but our memories will stay on with us.

Queenstown, New Zealand. I had heard a lot about that place. A must visit place in New Zealand. Maybe this is the best time for me to visit that place. Full of extreme sports, nice environment, beautiful sceneries, peaceful town, good food, and a nice place to drive around. I will manage my second semester. I will indeed find a way to join the trip. Somehow I feel that I will not regret joining that trip.