Lesson learned

Lesson learned? Well, Kicking one of the group mate out of one of the assignment is one of the meanest things I had ever done. Feeling bad? A little. But feeling ad doesn't help me putting back the name in. The fucking lazy retard should learn that, if no effort was being put into the assignment then there will be no marks for him.

All the other group mates actually agree to this. I have nothing else that I can do. Well, now, he had changed. Screw the whole incident.

Sick!?!?

Finally, my body nearly crash. Luckily with enough sick and fluid consumption, I am able to recover with just an overnight sleep. Luckily, working shift had been taken over by a friend and assignment nearly done my my mates. All I have to do now is to finalised everything and see which area need to be improve and corrected. Suddenly I have the urge to post this post because I am listening to a song my Celine Dion. Title, "My Heart Will Go On".

My Heart Will Go On

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Well, this is the best love song I had ever heard though. It is also the theme song for one of the best love movie ever made, "Titanic".

Besides "Titanic", another movie that I love is also "Independent Days". I think most of the people around my age will know bout these two movies. They are old but they are the best.

Place more trust.

While waiting for the file to be finish downloading, I willingly let myself being distracted by my laptop for a bit. Well, the downloading file trough MSN is really slow.

Place more trust. All these while I don;t think I trust the people around me. Maybe. No matter in what I am doing I prefer to take control of everything, making sure that it will go smooth. Just last few weeks, my friend shouted at me jokingly, "You don't trust me?". To be frank, "NO!". From the way he does his work, "FUCK IT!". 

Right now, same thing is happening. My group mates all sleeping. Before they sleep, one of them ask whether I am sleeping or not. Deep down, 'If I sleep, all of us wil definitely get a zero'. How can I trust that they will be able to finish it when they wake up later. 

FUCK IT.. Better go back to work while waitng for the file to finish downloading.

Morning!!

Yea. I just woke up. After three hours of nice sleep. I woke up even without the alarm waking me up. Great improvement. Suddenly I am craving for DIM SUM. Browsing through the net. I went "...". Well, I will go during the holiday. I am too lazy rght due to all the workload I am having now. 

Well, currently I have manage to grab a hold on al the episodes of crayon shin chan. Right before my exams. I am controling myself for not watcing them too much.

Hungry? I am hungry right now. What should I eat? Don't bother.

This morning while on the way back home, I heard the song, "Tong Hua" by Guang Liang and a lot of things came fashing in my mind. 

Just read my friend's blog bout "Change". Yea. The song "Tong Hua" always make me realise make me realise how much I had change since I left high school. 

Forget them. I have got lots of new songs to listen now.

Calm

Hectic. Yea, This is life. A common scenario that has een revolving around each of us living on the world right now. Assignments, tests, exams, works, family and friends. Maintaining all these in balance is indeed a big challenge. Each of that is my resposibility and I can't let myself fail in any one of them. 

In maintaining all these, I realise that I am losing my calmness. Mean? I am becoming mean. I realise that even my friends are meaner than me. They even tell the wrong due date for the assignment to other group in result they will hand in their assignment late this week thus getting a "zero'. Well, I nearly told the group that it was due to day. However, I just want to see their reaction in handling it and deep down I know that they can't hand it in in time anyway.

When I lose my calmness, I will tend to make wrong decision and in result I will screw things up. The ony way for me to cope with all these will be sacrificing my sleep and make more time availabe for me. For me to relax in between and deal with all these things. 

My saviour... "MOTHER". Providing me 160mg of caffeine allowing me to sleep 8 hours only in 48 hours time. Bless this drink creator.

I shall deal my responsibilities patiently and calm. Any mistakes will disappoint the people around me.